i didn't get to go to the beach today like I wanted, but its all good cuz it started raining. I'm in the process of clearing out my room instead. Boy have I saved a lot of shit.
My hair has gotten to the point where I can't stand it anymore. Too frizzy and "shaggy" as my sister said. The first thing she told me when she saw me yesterday? "you need a haircut." Damn, either I really really need one desperately or her cosmotology classes have really gone to her head. haha.
So tomorrow I have an appt at a Paul Brown Salon. Thank God I could get it before my interview. I hope it comes out good. *nervous* If my hair turns out shitty, I think i'm just gonna cry. *crossing fingers*
Saturday, March 31, 2001
Friday, March 30, 2001
Monday, March 26, 2001
Friday, March 23, 2001
Thursday, March 22, 2001
Wednesday, March 21, 2001
Okay, here's my take on things...
Bush is basically taking one giant step backward from what Clinton had acheived in regards to North/South Korean relations. I'm totally for the "sunshine" strategy Kim Jae Dung has taken. I'll admit that the two sides still have a long ways to go but I think its very important to get the two sides talking with peaceful relations. They are still technically at war since no treaty was ever signed after the Korean War declaring it over. Besides, how would you feel if your family were split in two just because you happened to be on one side of the 38 parallel, never to have contact with them again? I'd be pretty damn sad and upset and I would want to right it asap. And here we are, 50 years later and still nothing...or well, there's something but Bush apparently doesn't care about these insignificant facts.
I highly doubt reunification will come anytime soon because of the differing types of govt, but that doesn't mean they can't have peaceful relations.
My theory? Bush's administration just wants to get this "missile defense sheild" built to satisfy some big people who probably contributed to his campaign. Worrying about nuclear weapons? Sure its a valid concern, but backtracking to a stance from the Cold War days just doesn't make me very happy.
BUSH just doesn't make me very happy.
I don't think I'm ever going to fully trust him.
And I don't think I'm ever going to like him.
grrr
Bush is basically taking one giant step backward from what Clinton had acheived in regards to North/South Korean relations. I'm totally for the "sunshine" strategy Kim Jae Dung has taken. I'll admit that the two sides still have a long ways to go but I think its very important to get the two sides talking with peaceful relations. They are still technically at war since no treaty was ever signed after the Korean War declaring it over. Besides, how would you feel if your family were split in two just because you happened to be on one side of the 38 parallel, never to have contact with them again? I'd be pretty damn sad and upset and I would want to right it asap. And here we are, 50 years later and still nothing...or well, there's something but Bush apparently doesn't care about these insignificant facts.
I highly doubt reunification will come anytime soon because of the differing types of govt, but that doesn't mean they can't have peaceful relations.
My theory? Bush's administration just wants to get this "missile defense sheild" built to satisfy some big people who probably contributed to his campaign. Worrying about nuclear weapons? Sure its a valid concern, but backtracking to a stance from the Cold War days just doesn't make me very happy.
BUSH just doesn't make me very happy.
I don't think I'm ever going to fully trust him.
And I don't think I'm ever going to like him.
grrr
aww shit. no more subdomains on digitalrice. where's the email notification? i never got it! dammit. now i gotta change all my pages. grrr. www.digitalrice.com/bhurdie from now on peeps!
Tuesday, March 20, 2001
lan's comment on people at the gym reminded me of something I need to rant about too. Why do some people feel the need to strip buck nekkid in the locker room/bathroom right where everyone can see? Do they have no shame? eesh.
Yesterday when the good roomie and I walked into the bathroom we turned the corner and BAM! There was this white chick with NOTHING ON [!!!] sorting through her clothes. I dunno about you, but I find this quite intrusive on my personal space. Even people who undress to their underwear invade my space but at least I'm not seeing their goods ya know? This chick wasn't even that well endowed, so why put us through the misery? I know, I'm a bastard for saying so but that's just what I thought at the time. In fact, the quick glance that was forced upon me made me wince in pain, and I never looked back. eesh.
That's why man invented doors and bathroom stalls. >.<
People need to have a sense of shame!!
Yesterday when the good roomie and I walked into the bathroom we turned the corner and BAM! There was this white chick with NOTHING ON [!!!] sorting through her clothes. I dunno about you, but I find this quite intrusive on my personal space. Even people who undress to their underwear invade my space but at least I'm not seeing their goods ya know? This chick wasn't even that well endowed, so why put us through the misery? I know, I'm a bastard for saying so but that's just what I thought at the time. In fact, the quick glance that was forced upon me made me wince in pain, and I never looked back. eesh.
That's why man invented doors and bathroom stalls. >.<
People need to have a sense of shame!!
Monday, March 19, 2001
I'm sitting here eating carrot curry. Yes, you heard me right, CARROT curry. Fuck. This isn't by choice either. The fucking evil roomie apparently decided she'd just not take any and leave the dish full of just carrots and curry. No potatoes, no chicken, and only a few pieces of onion. Tell me again why I shouldn't smother her in her sleep?
heh heh >;P
heh heh >;P
I worked out again tonight. Yay! I'm getting good at this [with a whole lotta prodding by the good roomie and a whole shitload of whining on my part. hehe] But now I feel sick. I couldn't do much tonight. All I have in my system is a resevoir full of water, a hard boiled egg, a vegie stuffed bun, and ummm....hmm. I think that's it.
my tummy hurts. =/
my tummy hurts. =/
I have the BEST bf!!
He went to the college of ed office and talked to them and finally got them to change my interview to a day that I am actually there! yay! Of course now I've had my hopes up about staying longer [even though its $100 more] so i dunno. we'll see. heehee
Isn't he the greatest? *beam*
He went to the college of ed office and talked to them and finally got them to change my interview to a day that I am actually there! yay! Of course now I've had my hopes up about staying longer [even though its $100 more] so i dunno. we'll see. heehee
Isn't he the greatest? *beam*
Sunday, March 18, 2001
UH beat Cal in men's volleyball last night.
But its kind of odd...
California is a Pac-10 school that participates on the club level..."The Bears do not offer any scholarships in men's volleyball, and have no priority standing for use of the weight room or practice gym. With four pre-med majors and three engineering students, they scramble to find a workable practice schedule."
You would think that it would be a big sport. Well, at least thats what I think. *shrug* They just don't realize how cool vball is. =P Yeah, its totally a UH perspective to take
But its kind of odd...
California is a Pac-10 school that participates on the club level..."The Bears do not offer any scholarships in men's volleyball, and have no priority standing for use of the weight room or practice gym. With four pre-med majors and three engineering students, they scramble to find a workable practice schedule."
You would think that it would be a big sport. Well, at least thats what I think. *shrug* They just don't realize how cool vball is. =P Yeah, its totally a UH perspective to take
Saturday, March 17, 2001
Friday, March 16, 2001
Thursday, March 15, 2001
Here is a dumb and pointless fact about me:
Whenever I type my name at the end of emails I almost ALWAYS spell my name wrong. haha. I always have to correct it and its so annoying. I'm so tempted to leave it as is from now on.
so if you get an email from maroi, moari, maira, or something of the like, you know who it is. lol
Whenever I type my name at the end of emails I almost ALWAYS spell my name wrong. haha. I always have to correct it and its so annoying. I'm so tempted to leave it as is from now on.
so if you get an email from maroi, moari, maira, or something of the like, you know who it is. lol
I just got this wish in my head. heehee
I wish I could go to some party or club where I could see the cute BART guys. lol
It gets monotonous seeing them everyday in the same environment, doing the same things, and basically wearing the same clothes. Besides, i always look like crap on bart. I don't know what it is. Maybe its the nasty brownish upholstery. haha
Hearing one of the guys talk about going to Avaron one day made me want to go again. lol
Yeah, I'm a retard. AND PROUD OF IT!
heehee
^_^
I wish I could go to some party or club where I could see the cute BART guys. lol
It gets monotonous seeing them everyday in the same environment, doing the same things, and basically wearing the same clothes. Besides, i always look like crap on bart. I don't know what it is. Maybe its the nasty brownish upholstery. haha
Hearing one of the guys talk about going to Avaron one day made me want to go again. lol
Yeah, I'm a retard. AND PROUD OF IT!
heehee
^_^
I really have to stop this habit of bawling at work.
1. mom is being an unreasonable bitch. She is buying a twin bed today and giving MY bed away..the bed that I paid for.
2. UH couldn't give me a interview until the 4th. Yes, my flight back to SFO was on the 3rd. If I change my flt now, it will cost me another 400. If I wait till after I get to Hawaii, it will cost me 100 but possibly more time since I have to make sure another flight is available.
3. All shitty things seem to gravitate toward me right now.
fuck.
1. mom is being an unreasonable bitch. She is buying a twin bed today and giving MY bed away..the bed that I paid for.
2. UH couldn't give me a interview until the 4th. Yes, my flight back to SFO was on the 3rd. If I change my flt now, it will cost me another 400. If I wait till after I get to Hawaii, it will cost me 100 but possibly more time since I have to make sure another flight is available.
3. All shitty things seem to gravitate toward me right now.
fuck.
This makes me sad and angry at the same time.
I so so so *SO* hate Cayetano. Education as his top priority my ass! That's why he hasn't given the public school teachers [and even the UH professors!] adequate pay raises. errrrrr I just hope something bites him back in the ass soon. >.<
I so so so *SO* hate Cayetano. Education as his top priority my ass! That's why he hasn't given the public school teachers [and even the UH professors!] adequate pay raises. errrrrr I just hope something bites him back in the ass soon. >.<
ARGH!
*pulling out hair*
Tell me, isn't this being a bit *too* unreasonable?
"maria, dad's farts and beer breath have forced me to sleep in your bedroom from now on. when you come later this month, please sleep on the sofa. if you move back in july, we will have to share the bedroom by buying 2 twin beds. if you have a better solution, please let me know."
*pulling out hair*
Tell me, isn't this being a bit *too* unreasonable?
"maria, dad's farts and beer breath have forced me to sleep in your bedroom from now on. when you come later this month, please sleep on the sofa. if you move back in july, we will have to share the bedroom by buying 2 twin beds. if you have a better solution, please let me know."
Wednesday, March 14, 2001
So last night I finally got to talk to the boy. I was so happy, and yet I was so sad. The last few trying days have been hard without him by my side. =/ And then he told me of what the woman he is tutoring English to keeps wishing.
She has this cute dream of him moving to Japan after he graduates to teach. Its almost as if she has it planned out with him being able to teach elementary school and maybe tutor on the side. He'd be able to make a lot of money. "You and Maria can move to Japan and you wouldn't have to worry because you'd make lots of money and then you could always come over on weekends and I'd cook for you." The fact that she's planning it all out is scary and cute at the same time.
I got sad at this for a while. I even burst his little bubble of happiness as he was telling me about it because I wasn't too excited. But you must understand that the last time he talked about moving to Japan he said "if we weren't together anymore, i think I'd probably move there to work." But now it was involving me? Where would I fit in? So many times I feel like I'm not even close to belonging in that part of his life. Not that I don't want to...I just don't. Besides, what could I possibly do in Japan?
But then he clearly became disappointed when I didn't share his enthusiasm and then I felt bad. I felt bad for not being happy about a silly little dream. But the more I thought about it, the more I liked the idea of moving to an exciting new country with him. I like the idea more and more. I just don't know how I can convey this to him.
*sigh* I miss him.
She has this cute dream of him moving to Japan after he graduates to teach. Its almost as if she has it planned out with him being able to teach elementary school and maybe tutor on the side. He'd be able to make a lot of money. "You and Maria can move to Japan and you wouldn't have to worry because you'd make lots of money and then you could always come over on weekends and I'd cook for you." The fact that she's planning it all out is scary and cute at the same time.
I got sad at this for a while. I even burst his little bubble of happiness as he was telling me about it because I wasn't too excited. But you must understand that the last time he talked about moving to Japan he said "if we weren't together anymore, i think I'd probably move there to work." But now it was involving me? Where would I fit in? So many times I feel like I'm not even close to belonging in that part of his life. Not that I don't want to...I just don't. Besides, what could I possibly do in Japan?
But then he clearly became disappointed when I didn't share his enthusiasm and then I felt bad. I felt bad for not being happy about a silly little dream. But the more I thought about it, the more I liked the idea of moving to an exciting new country with him. I like the idea more and more. I just don't know how I can convey this to him.
*sigh* I miss him.
Monday, March 12, 2001
ok..now i'm crying over this whole doctor shit thing now. That can't be good eh? But i mean, to have a doctor that won't even listen to you? WTF? I'm mad.>=..( She wouldn't let me switch types of bc pills and she wouldn't really write me a prescription for acne despite everything I was telling her I wanted. Does my opinion and voice me nothing?
Yeah, i guess i doesn't. =/
Yeah, i guess i doesn't. =/
Okay, that's it. I hate my doctor. Well, maybe hate is too strong of a word. Let's just say that I miss my doctor(s) back home. I especially miss my dermatologist.
My doctor now seems sort of hippie-ish. erk.maybe its the whole berkeley thing. Who knows. All I know is that I didn't like the way she explained things to me. grrr.
What I want are drugs & prescriptions, not some lecture on how I should cut back on caffeine. If I mention that I ran out of my prescribed medication, shouldn't that be an indication to write me a new one? grrrr. sorry, i'm just bitter because I miss my dermatologist.
And THEN! How the hell was I supposed to know that its better to get a pap smear earlier in your cycle? How the hell was I supposed to know that it would hurt like a mutha since its so late in mine. Its not like they teach us these things in school ya know! Grr...it felt like she was lecturing me and that it served me right just because I didn't know.
Reason #53 for why I miss home. I miss my doctor(s). boohar.
My doctor now seems sort of hippie-ish. erk.maybe its the whole berkeley thing. Who knows. All I know is that I didn't like the way she explained things to me. grrr.
What I want are drugs & prescriptions, not some lecture on how I should cut back on caffeine. If I mention that I ran out of my prescribed medication, shouldn't that be an indication to write me a new one? grrrr. sorry, i'm just bitter because I miss my dermatologist.
And THEN! How the hell was I supposed to know that its better to get a pap smear earlier in your cycle? How the hell was I supposed to know that it would hurt like a mutha since its so late in mine. Its not like they teach us these things in school ya know! Grr...it felt like she was lecturing me and that it served me right just because I didn't know.
Reason #53 for why I miss home. I miss my doctor(s). boohar.
Sunday, March 11, 2001
YAY!!
UH won the WAC title!! They're now on their way to their first NCAA tournament since 1994, and their 3rd one in their basketball history!
YAY!
UH won the WAC title!! They're now on their way to their first NCAA tournament since 1994, and their 3rd one in their basketball history!
YAY!
Saturday, March 10, 2001
Friday, March 09, 2001
Thursday, March 08, 2001
Heya...
I have a small request for those of you who link to the index2.html page. Ya think you could link to just bhurdie.digitalrice.com instead? Just wondering. It would certainly make me much happier, cuz then I can find out where all these random people come from. lol.
I have a small request for those of you who link to the index2.html page. Ya think you could link to just bhurdie.digitalrice.com instead? Just wondering. It would certainly make me much happier, cuz then I can find out where all these random people come from. lol.
It so sucks.
I had my heart so set on flying with the boy. I checked yesterday morning at it was still $400. By 1 am last night, it was up to 700. Boohar. Then began the debate of whethere $250 was worth the flight. In the end, my hopes were dashed.
Then I started a search for a cheap(er) ticket. I would have to leave the day after the boy [gah! i should just sleep at the airport. sheesh] and I would leave home about 10 hours earlier. dammit all to hell. That's like 1.5 days that I could've been home!
The good news: The ticket I bought at 2:30 am is now listed for $130 more. At least I still got some kind of deal. heh. =/
I had my heart so set on flying with the boy. I checked yesterday morning at it was still $400. By 1 am last night, it was up to 700. Boohar. Then began the debate of whethere $250 was worth the flight. In the end, my hopes were dashed.
Then I started a search for a cheap(er) ticket. I would have to leave the day after the boy [gah! i should just sleep at the airport. sheesh] and I would leave home about 10 hours earlier. dammit all to hell. That's like 1.5 days that I could've been home!
The good news: The ticket I bought at 2:30 am is now listed for $130 more. At least I still got some kind of deal. heh. =/
Wednesday, March 07, 2001
Tuesday, March 06, 2001
I'm happy today. Er..Happi-ER. I think I've figgered the cause of my downturn is that I haven't been out in a real long time. Out as in...out having fun with people other than my roommate. Yeah, its partially my fault, having anti-social tendencies and all, but I'm really trying to change that now.
Gotta email Rose...but damn...gotta wait till she comes back from London [the lucky ho. hehe]
Min...are we still going out? *hoping*
And yeah...happy-er because of emails from Scott, and Mary. [and of course my Grant. ^_^] Gotta love em. =)
Gotta email Rose...but damn...gotta wait till she comes back from London [the lucky ho. hehe]
Min...are we still going out? *hoping*
And yeah...happy-er because of emails from Scott, and Mary. [and of course my Grant. ^_^] Gotta love em. =)
Monday, March 05, 2001
eek!
To be happy or worried? Both for now.
Happie: Possibly taking a flight back home with the love of my life! ^________^
Worrie: Not being able to schedule the interview until 3/15, and hence not knowing what day its on so I can buy the plane ticket which means the price will probably jack up another hundred or so by then. Then I must worry about how work will react to 3 additional days of vacation. Consider this: I'm already taking off from one friday to another. Add on another 3 days and it'll practically be 2 weeks without me in the office. Umm yeah "when did she start again?"
EEK!
To be happy or worried? Both for now.
Happie: Possibly taking a flight back home with the love of my life! ^________^
Worrie: Not being able to schedule the interview until 3/15, and hence not knowing what day its on so I can buy the plane ticket which means the price will probably jack up another hundred or so by then. Then I must worry about how work will react to 3 additional days of vacation. Consider this: I'm already taking off from one friday to another. Add on another 3 days and it'll practically be 2 weeks without me in the office. Umm yeah "when did she start again?"
EEK!
My worst fear is causing a "medical emergency" on BART. Today, that fear almost came true.
I guess eating a really early dinner isn't a good thing since I don't eat breakfast until I get into the office. Bleh. I was late today and hence, I was forced to transfer at MacArthur and catch a much more crowded Daly City train. So not only did I not get a seat, I was basically sardined with a gazillion other people. Personal space people!! sheesh.
So we're in the transbay tube when all of a sudden I start getting this sick feeling in my stomach and then it spreads to the rest of my body. I start sweating profusely and I get mad chills. Then my hearing got muffled and soon everything started getting dark. I was soooo praying that we'd get to Embarcadero soon. If only there were space on the floor for me to sit [i've done it before when a similar, less scary incident occurred].
Fortunately we quickly arrived at Embarcadero [it seemed like eternity tho] and I tried to hold on until I could finally snag a seat. The old man in the suit sitting in front of me didn't get up unfortunately so I had to stumble over a few feet and collapse in another seat. *sigh* I quickly whipped out my little pack of gummy Fruity-Os and started munching.
And then there was light...sorta. I contemplated sitting there and riding BART for a few more stops but then I thought what a pain it'd be to ride all the way back to Montgomery so I got off at the next stop, still munching on my gummies.
Whew. Made it to work, still slightly sweating and still extremely chilled, but at least I could support myself and my hearing was starting to return. heh
I think having low blood sugar really sucks.
blah. Maybe I should've caused that medical emergency by fainting. It would be funny to come in to work and say "yeah, I'm the reason you were late today. Go ahead and hate me. nyah"
And then I'd get stoned. wheee
I guess eating a really early dinner isn't a good thing since I don't eat breakfast until I get into the office. Bleh. I was late today and hence, I was forced to transfer at MacArthur and catch a much more crowded Daly City train. So not only did I not get a seat, I was basically sardined with a gazillion other people. Personal space people!! sheesh.
So we're in the transbay tube when all of a sudden I start getting this sick feeling in my stomach and then it spreads to the rest of my body. I start sweating profusely and I get mad chills. Then my hearing got muffled and soon everything started getting dark. I was soooo praying that we'd get to Embarcadero soon. If only there were space on the floor for me to sit [i've done it before when a similar, less scary incident occurred].
Fortunately we quickly arrived at Embarcadero [it seemed like eternity tho] and I tried to hold on until I could finally snag a seat. The old man in the suit sitting in front of me didn't get up unfortunately so I had to stumble over a few feet and collapse in another seat. *sigh* I quickly whipped out my little pack of gummy Fruity-Os and started munching.
And then there was light...sorta. I contemplated sitting there and riding BART for a few more stops but then I thought what a pain it'd be to ride all the way back to Montgomery so I got off at the next stop, still munching on my gummies.
Whew. Made it to work, still slightly sweating and still extremely chilled, but at least I could support myself and my hearing was starting to return. heh
I think having low blood sugar really sucks.
blah. Maybe I should've caused that medical emergency by fainting. It would be funny to come in to work and say "yeah, I'm the reason you were late today. Go ahead and hate me. nyah"
And then I'd get stoned. wheee
Sunday, March 04, 2001
Saturday, March 03, 2001
grrr. i'm so mad.
The good roomie made me call the pizza place after a long drawn out battle. I HATE CALLING!!! I have this thing about calling people/places who I don't know of that I've never called before. Grrr. And now we're still waiting and I'm questioning my directions to our house. I'm semi hoping they get lost and don't deliver and/or give us shitty cold pizza just so I can rub it in her face that I should never call again. dammit!
The good roomie made me call the pizza place after a long drawn out battle. I HATE CALLING!!! I have this thing about calling people/places who I don't know of that I've never called before. Grrr. And now we're still waiting and I'm questioning my directions to our house. I'm semi hoping they get lost and don't deliver and/or give us shitty cold pizza just so I can rub it in her face that I should never call again. dammit!
Friday, March 02, 2001
YES!!!
You are now looking at *THE* coolest person in the world.
..er..well, coolest after winniebhurd, queen cyn, ms. x, and....
Oh fuck it. I'm just the coolest in this minute in time. How often is it that you know more shit than the "Senior IT Analyst?!" hahaha
*beaming*
You are now looking at *THE* coolest person in the world.
..er..well, coolest after winniebhurd, queen cyn, ms. x, and....
Oh fuck it. I'm just the coolest in this minute in time. How often is it that you know more shit than the "Senior IT Analyst?!" hahaha
*beaming*
Thursday, March 01, 2001
33 now =)
I really want to update my journiary, but i'm too lazy to do it now. after all the writing today, I'm pooped. gosh.
But the reason why I want to update is cuz I called UH today and they received my apps! yay! So much relief. No more stress [well, relatively speaking]. But the thing that gets me is that the app in question got there yesterday! gah! I'm really pissed. Priority mail and it took like a week to get there. Pissed doesn't even begin to describe the feelings I have. And if it hadn't gotten there? Well, I'd just have to go postal on their asses. lol Yeah that was bad, but SO! I'm entitled gosh dammit! ;P
So yes, much happy now and tomorrow's Friday. Hitting the gym overtime and then a Krispy Kreme run. YES!!!!!!!!!
heehee
I really want to update my journiary, but i'm too lazy to do it now. after all the writing today, I'm pooped. gosh.
But the reason why I want to update is cuz I called UH today and they received my apps! yay! So much relief. No more stress [well, relatively speaking]. But the thing that gets me is that the app in question got there yesterday! gah! I'm really pissed. Priority mail and it took like a week to get there. Pissed doesn't even begin to describe the feelings I have. And if it hadn't gotten there? Well, I'd just have to go postal on their asses. lol Yeah that was bad, but SO! I'm entitled gosh dammit! ;P
So yes, much happy now and tomorrow's Friday. Hitting the gym overtime and then a Krispy Kreme run. YES!!!!!!!!!
heehee
Thirty-One. I wrote thirty-one emails today. all individual emails.
Whew. I think I'm all emailed out. If I don't reply to you, don't take offense. And if I didn't email you to begin with, don't take offense either. Most of them were people from my real life anyway. heh
...wait. I actually had a real life at one point?
Whew. I think I'm all emailed out. If I don't reply to you, don't take offense. And if I didn't email you to begin with, don't take offense either. Most of them were people from my real life anyway. heh
...wait. I actually had a real life at one point?
Jake Shimabukuro is the most awesomest ukulele player I've ever seen or heard. The one time I saw him play live, he actually started playing with his teeth at one point! So rad! He's like uber-super-mega-ultra talented. =)
Now he's written a song in memory of those on the Ehime Maru. Down load the song here.
Now he's written a song in memory of those on the Ehime Maru. Down load the song here.
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