ho shiznitz! the 2nd harry potter trailer is out and it's definitely increasing my anticipation. it even looks like its following along the first book pretty well. of course i'm sure it'll be nothing like what i imagined. disappointments like that suck don't you think? but yes yes! check it out! harrypotter.com
and while i'm on the subject of movies...fast and the furious rocked. my baby was happy. haha. my only thought though is this: does anyone else think that the white guy looks and sounds like keanu? okay, well at least sounds like? it was uncanny! *woah*
Wednesday, June 27, 2001
my mom makes it sooo very hard to get along with her and like her. she is too opinionated and stuck in her ways for her own good. she's also rude and feels her stance is always the right one. oh yes, and add bad manners to that too.
its bad enough when i go through it all the time and i need to vent and rant about it, but its even worse when your bf understands everything you're saying because he's seen it first hand and gets upset at exactly the same things. *sigh*
why does she have to go and make other parts of my life so difficult as well?
nuhmoo himdeuruh
boohar
its bad enough when i go through it all the time and i need to vent and rant about it, but its even worse when your bf understands everything you're saying because he's seen it first hand and gets upset at exactly the same things. *sigh*
why does she have to go and make other parts of my life so difficult as well?
nuhmoo himdeuruh
boohar
Tuesday, June 26, 2001
tooo tired to journal this so blog will have to do. hmm, this means I have to keep it short...NOT!
so since I'm taking this multicultural education class we've started to brush upon topics that I tend to feel pretty deeply about, like affirmative action for instance. tonight's paper is actually about this topic and an article we read regarding the court decision against it with regards to this one law school.
anyhoo..since grant was over I obviously subjected him to a very lengthy discussion about race and allowing minority races to have a bit of a nudge, in a sense, when it came to school admissions and such. then somehow we came to the topic of how grant doesn't like it when people get all defensive and angry about their race [eg, being mistaken for japanese when you're uchinanchu (okinawan)] even when the things that make them angry [like past repression and discrimination] have never directly affected them personally.
I started to agree, but then I realized that I do exactly the same thing sometimes. I'm hapa. I "pull more of the haole [white] side" as grant would say, and I most def don't look Korean. Yet when people ask if/assume that I'm part Japanese (or even filipino) I get kind of upset. Sometimes I think I'm upset at the fact that the Japanese did horrible things to the Koreans in past history, but its also because I like to think that I have at least some "Korean pride" as cheezy as it may sound.
But the thing that really got me was when grant pointed out that I always get bitter or upset when people see me as haole. He doesn't like when I do that, but I honestly can't help it. Not knowing anything about my real dad, I obviously know nothing about being Irish, and with my now-dad's family being extremely small and not as close-knit, of course I'm going to associate myself with my mom's side -- my Korean side. This probably explains why I'm still pretty pissed that my mom put me as "white" on the census form last year. Being the first time more than one race could be checked I would've at least put white/korean. But no. In the eyes of the federal government, I am now counted as white for the next 10 years. shitty. Actually, if I had my choice, I probably would've only put Korean. To heck with the white. They're over represented anyway!
In short, I never liked being seen as part of the dominant racial group; I don't like being seen for something I don't see myself as; I just don't like being seen as white. Call it denial or whatever you will, but it just upsets me when people say I'm white...and it always will. So please, its Korean-American. Got it?
so since I'm taking this multicultural education class we've started to brush upon topics that I tend to feel pretty deeply about, like affirmative action for instance. tonight's paper is actually about this topic and an article we read regarding the court decision against it with regards to this one law school.
anyhoo..since grant was over I obviously subjected him to a very lengthy discussion about race and allowing minority races to have a bit of a nudge, in a sense, when it came to school admissions and such. then somehow we came to the topic of how grant doesn't like it when people get all defensive and angry about their race [eg, being mistaken for japanese when you're uchinanchu (okinawan)] even when the things that make them angry [like past repression and discrimination] have never directly affected them personally.
I started to agree, but then I realized that I do exactly the same thing sometimes. I'm hapa. I "pull more of the haole [white] side" as grant would say, and I most def don't look Korean. Yet when people ask if/assume that I'm part Japanese (or even filipino) I get kind of upset. Sometimes I think I'm upset at the fact that the Japanese did horrible things to the Koreans in past history, but its also because I like to think that I have at least some "Korean pride" as cheezy as it may sound.
But the thing that really got me was when grant pointed out that I always get bitter or upset when people see me as haole. He doesn't like when I do that, but I honestly can't help it. Not knowing anything about my real dad, I obviously know nothing about being Irish, and with my now-dad's family being extremely small and not as close-knit, of course I'm going to associate myself with my mom's side -- my Korean side. This probably explains why I'm still pretty pissed that my mom put me as "white" on the census form last year. Being the first time more than one race could be checked I would've at least put white/korean. But no. In the eyes of the federal government, I am now counted as white for the next 10 years. shitty. Actually, if I had my choice, I probably would've only put Korean. To heck with the white. They're over represented anyway!
In short, I never liked being seen as part of the dominant racial group; I don't like being seen for something I don't see myself as; I just don't like being seen as white. Call it denial or whatever you will, but it just upsets me when people say I'm white...and it always will. So please, its Korean-American. Got it?
Monday, June 25, 2001
Getting ready for my first day of school. ACK! Its kinda scary yo. Almost as if I'm a little kid again.
Hmm...and this is my first time going to summer school since 1994. Unless you count my trip to Korea as summer school, but who would? It was just a mass orgy fest of drinking, shopping, and noraebang-ing. You think summer school could be that fun at UH?
Hmm...and this is my first time going to summer school since 1994. Unless you count my trip to Korea as summer school, but who would? It was just a mass orgy fest of drinking, shopping, and noraebang-ing. You think summer school could be that fun at UH?
Saturday, June 23, 2001
Yes...just 2 more hours till we hit the Taste of Honolulu.
Mmmmmmmm....food.
Goooooood....fooooood.
Don't you hate it when you think with your stomach?
Mmmmmmmm....food.
Goooooood....fooooood.
Don't you hate it when you think with your stomach?
Despite everyone's scathing reviews of Lara Croft: Tomb Raider, Grant and I went to see it anyway. Everyone was right. But hey, I told Grant that we only went to see Mrs Billy Bob and her breasts anyway. The action scenes were fun but, as has been said many times, the script sucked ass. I mean, for the first 20-30 minutes at least, I kept waiting to hear some good dialogue [ie, more than a couple of sentences]. Sheesh. Bad plot, bad evil villains, but hey, at least the boobs were slightly interesting to watch. =)
I really want to do that thing with the bungee cords though. haha
I really want to do that thing with the bungee cords though. haha
Our landlord took out $256 from our security deposit. That b*tch! grrr. Most of it was for carpet cleaning, but then it almost seemed as though she were looking for things to charge us for. I mean, bathtub cleaning? kitchen cabinet door? kitchen sink? All of that was left how it came. And to think, she's charging $300 more now for that hell hole. >.<
Thursday, June 21, 2001
So the blog doesn't look too good now, but hey, it looks fine when seen through the main site [1024x768 res please].
heh.
heh.
Oh its so cool. Noraebang on your computer! woop!
Of course, you have to have korean font, be able to read at least some hangul, and register for an id. But hey, if you're into kpop and can read pretty ok [i've found out i suck terribly these days, esp for fast songs] sing your heart out!
Now you won't have to humiliate yourself in front of all your friends when you miss a word [or 5] or when you hit that high note REALLY wrong the first time.
Practice! Practice! Practice!
And then amaze your friends the next time you all go to a real noraebang!
woop!
Of course, you have to have korean font, be able to read at least some hangul, and register for an id. But hey, if you're into kpop and can read pretty ok [i've found out i suck terribly these days, esp for fast songs] sing your heart out!
Now you won't have to humiliate yourself in front of all your friends when you miss a word [or 5] or when you hit that high note REALLY wrong the first time.
Practice! Practice! Practice!
And then amaze your friends the next time you all go to a real noraebang!
woop!
Sometimes only those on the outside can see what is truely wrong with your relationship. On the inside, you only see what you want to see and you hope that things will go the way you want. I was that fool on the inside once, and now I'm the one outside looking in. I wish there were something I could say, but words escape me. I wish I could give him the happiness he deserves.
boohar
boohar
Tuesday, June 19, 2001
Ever since Grant got a Canon IXY [aka the Japanese version of the PowerShotS100] digital camera from the woman he tutors a few weeks ago, my desire to get one of my own has dramatically fallen through the floor. Its not that I'm thinking "woohoo, now I sorta have one so I don't need one of my own." No. My thinking is really "dammit, he got one first. Fine then, i don't want it anymore...I want..."
So since my #1 electronic toy of choice has fallen off the list, my attention has started to focus towards this: the Creative Labs Nomad II 64MB mp3 player. Since I'm trying to start exercising more [ie. jogging] I need something to keep me preoccupied, and since my old school diskman is too week to handle the jolts, and I'd rather put up with no sound than record my cds on tape [i don't own a walkman anyway! hehe] this is the perfect solution. =) It even has a digital FM tuner with 32 presets...
...Hmm, I wonder if Hawaii even has 32 FM radio stations. ha!
So since my #1 electronic toy of choice has fallen off the list, my attention has started to focus towards this: the Creative Labs Nomad II 64MB mp3 player. Since I'm trying to start exercising more [ie. jogging] I need something to keep me preoccupied, and since my old school diskman is too week to handle the jolts, and I'd rather put up with no sound than record my cds on tape [i don't own a walkman anyway! hehe] this is the perfect solution. =) It even has a digital FM tuner with 32 presets...
...Hmm, I wonder if Hawaii even has 32 FM radio stations. ha!
While I've been bemoaning the fact that there wasn't a Macy's here, I'm a little sad now that it will be taking over Liberty House. I mean, LH has always be a unique part of home to me. *sigh*
Sunday, June 17, 2001
Saturday, June 16, 2001
I am such a genius.
The sufer cousin visiting for a few days before he hits australia and bali wanted me to go out with him and his friends tonight [i guess so I could be the designated driver..but still] and despite not having anything of the least importance to do, I still decline.
Yes, I am SOOOOO smart.
>.<
The sufer cousin visiting for a few days before he hits australia and bali wanted me to go out with him and his friends tonight [i guess so I could be the designated driver..but still] and despite not having anything of the least importance to do, I still decline.
Yes, I am SOOOOO smart.
>.<
Thursday, June 14, 2001
Oh yeah! My dream....
Last night I had the oddest and most uncomfortable dreams. All I can remember is that for the most part I was a wrongly convicted murderer facing execution, only that was in California and I was out in Hawaii "hiding out" or something, only I wasn't hiding because I knew that as long as I didn't go back to Cali I wouldn't be taken into custody and killed.
Its quite an unnerving feeling have the feeling that you've been wrongly accused and are facing death. I wonder how many people are sitting on death row right now when they don't even belong there. At times I think the death penalty is the way to go if the crime was severe enough, I mean, if he's gonna get life, he's gonna die there anyway right? But then for the most part its just not right. You can't be killing people just because you're the higher power that decides so. That's so medieval. And what happens when innocent people are convicted? There's not much chance for them to prove to the system otherwise before they're killed. I say, if the dude did something atrocious, let him rot and suffer for the rest of his life behind bars getting raped and beaten and the like. Now wouldn't you say that's the fitting punishment?
Ok, sorry about that tangent. I just was very disturbed at the prospect of being executed by the government for something I didn't do. Then again, I also dreamed about buying Brummel & Brown butter spread and other things so I could cook, all while some great intelligent elder was with me [think Papa Smurf or Albus Dumbledore (of Harry Potter fame)]. So, I'm not quite sure what I should think now.
Yes, odd indeed.
Last night I had the oddest and most uncomfortable dreams. All I can remember is that for the most part I was a wrongly convicted murderer facing execution, only that was in California and I was out in Hawaii "hiding out" or something, only I wasn't hiding because I knew that as long as I didn't go back to Cali I wouldn't be taken into custody and killed.
Its quite an unnerving feeling have the feeling that you've been wrongly accused and are facing death. I wonder how many people are sitting on death row right now when they don't even belong there. At times I think the death penalty is the way to go if the crime was severe enough, I mean, if he's gonna get life, he's gonna die there anyway right? But then for the most part its just not right. You can't be killing people just because you're the higher power that decides so. That's so medieval. And what happens when innocent people are convicted? There's not much chance for them to prove to the system otherwise before they're killed. I say, if the dude did something atrocious, let him rot and suffer for the rest of his life behind bars getting raped and beaten and the like. Now wouldn't you say that's the fitting punishment?
Ok, sorry about that tangent. I just was very disturbed at the prospect of being executed by the government for something I didn't do. Then again, I also dreamed about buying Brummel & Brown butter spread and other things so I could cook, all while some great intelligent elder was with me [think Papa Smurf or Albus Dumbledore (of Harry Potter fame)]. So, I'm not quite sure what I should think now.
Yes, odd indeed.
I've been really bad about updating my regular journal lately...and digitalrice is actually working! I can't help it though. I've just been preoccupied with thoughts and being the lazy ass that I am, I'd rather just sit staring at the screen rather than type anything. This is also the reason I haven't been replying to emails. I have good moments tho. Sometimes I'm able to get maybe one or 2 emails out. hehe. What an accomplishment.
But the thing I'm most proud of is the fact that I've burned a shit load of albums [mostly kpop for now] that have just been sitting on my harddrive. Yay for more space! whoop! ummm..yeah. I have no life. I really need to get off my fat behind and turn in those apps. grrr.
But the thing I'm most proud of is the fact that I've burned a shit load of albums [mostly kpop for now] that have just been sitting on my harddrive. Yay for more space! whoop! ummm..yeah. I have no life. I really need to get off my fat behind and turn in those apps. grrr.
Wednesday, June 13, 2001
Today was grant's first day teaching at that school that mostly koreans send their kids to. From now on it will occupy his mornings. This is in addition to his twice a week stint tutoring english and working at the luau on Mon, Fri, & Sat. Add in his workout almost daily for a few hours plus the prep needed for his class and that just about sums up his whole week.
Unless I choose to go with him to the school [he says it would be good for me to teach math] or unless I help him prep and grade papers like I did tonight, I doubt I'll ever see him anymore.
Am I feeling depressed and neglected? Heck yeah I am. Why wouldn't I? Honestly, I crave attention and when I don't get it, I sort of go into this downward spiral of self-destruction. The thought of all the things I had onced hoped for being thrown away makes my stomach lurch and I hate the feeling. No more Oceans, no more beach trips, no more time to do anything on my list.
But a big part of me just wants to get revenge...I want to do all the things on my list alone..without him or anyone just to prove everyone that I don't need them. I want to throw myself into school and studying. I just want to be the one who is too busy for anyone else for a change.
And that's what I plan to do. I'm going to take myself to the beach tomorrow. And maybe I'll go jogging. And after that, who knows what. I just want to keep busy from now on.
Help prep?
Sorry, I have to to study.
Go see a movie?
Sorry, I already saw it.
Oh, you finally have time free?
Sorry, I'm booked for the next 3 days.
Yep, gotta love how destructive I can be eh?
Unless I choose to go with him to the school [he says it would be good for me to teach math] or unless I help him prep and grade papers like I did tonight, I doubt I'll ever see him anymore.
Am I feeling depressed and neglected? Heck yeah I am. Why wouldn't I? Honestly, I crave attention and when I don't get it, I sort of go into this downward spiral of self-destruction. The thought of all the things I had onced hoped for being thrown away makes my stomach lurch and I hate the feeling. No more Oceans, no more beach trips, no more time to do anything on my list.
But a big part of me just wants to get revenge...I want to do all the things on my list alone..without him or anyone just to prove everyone that I don't need them. I want to throw myself into school and studying. I just want to be the one who is too busy for anyone else for a change.
And that's what I plan to do. I'm going to take myself to the beach tomorrow. And maybe I'll go jogging. And after that, who knows what. I just want to keep busy from now on.
Help prep?
Sorry, I have to to study.
Go see a movie?
Sorry, I already saw it.
Oh, you finally have time free?
Sorry, I'm booked for the next 3 days.
Yep, gotta love how destructive I can be eh?
Tuesday, June 12, 2001
oh...and did i mention that i finally got my rejection letter from cal last week? yep, the bastids finally sent it to me after making me wait forever. *shrug* oh wells. not like i was gonna go there anyway. its just another one of those letters to add to my ever growing pile.
one day i think i'll set my pyro tendencies loose and do some kind of dance around the fire. heh.
one day i think i'll set my pyro tendencies loose and do some kind of dance around the fire. heh.
don't know why i feel so down right now. It almost feels as though it wouldn't be home if I didn't feel at least some lingering depression all the time.
i miss grant.
i wish i had a job.
i wish i knew more people here.
i just want to crawl into a deep dark hole, roll up into a ball, and curse the world forever as I die a slow, bitter death.
ok, i think i need to stop listening to this depressing song on repeat.
i miss grant.
i wish i had a job.
i wish i knew more people here.
i just want to crawl into a deep dark hole, roll up into a ball, and curse the world forever as I die a slow, bitter death.
ok, i think i need to stop listening to this depressing song on repeat.
Monday, June 11, 2001
i haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaate stress.
*patoowie*spit* yuck yuck. I hate the taste of stress with a passion.
Remembered this morning that it was Kamehameha Day so UH was closed. dammit. I barely made it out of the house too...but I forced myself to go shopping and bought a pretty good pair of shorts. woop! that has been the highlight of my day. The down point of the day? When grant told me he took a job at punahou teaching 7th & 8th graders for the next 4 weeks. Now I definitely will never see him. *sulk* oh well, so goes my life.
and btw, my sister is an irresponsible biyatch.
*patoowie*spit* yuck yuck. I hate the taste of stress with a passion.
Remembered this morning that it was Kamehameha Day so UH was closed. dammit. I barely made it out of the house too...but I forced myself to go shopping and bought a pretty good pair of shorts. woop! that has been the highlight of my day. The down point of the day? When grant told me he took a job at punahou teaching 7th & 8th graders for the next 4 weeks. Now I definitely will never see him. *sulk* oh well, so goes my life.
and btw, my sister is an irresponsible biyatch.
Sunday, June 10, 2001
Tomorrow I have to turn in my loan forms. Then I think I will go to Old Navy since I have to buy at least 1 new pair of jeans. While moving boxes to Rose's car that one day, my pants ripped and I had a HUGE hole in the butt area under the right pocket. "No problem" I said, thinking that it was the pair that already had a smaller hole there so it was destined for the trash soon anyway.
However, walking around looking for a desk, Grant discovered that my pants had a semi-large hole in the exact same place. Changing at home, I discovered that these were in fact the pants that I thought had ripped back in Cali. Dammit! I lost 2 pairs of jeans in 1 week! So yes, I am sort of running low on casual clothes right now.
And I only have 2 pairs of shorts too. Sucks since now I think my ass is too big to look good in any of the styles out right now. haha. No, I did not just say that in public. *doh*
Maybe I'll turn in that Old Navy employment app tomorrow too. ;P
However, walking around looking for a desk, Grant discovered that my pants had a semi-large hole in the exact same place. Changing at home, I discovered that these were in fact the pants that I thought had ripped back in Cali. Dammit! I lost 2 pairs of jeans in 1 week! So yes, I am sort of running low on casual clothes right now.
And I only have 2 pairs of shorts too. Sucks since now I think my ass is too big to look good in any of the styles out right now. haha. No, I did not just say that in public. *doh*
Maybe I'll turn in that Old Navy employment app tomorrow too. ;P
dammit.
I'm refiling my taxes so I can be considered a HI resident again and so I can pay res tuition [instead of the ludicrous amount for non-res] but now I have to pay almost 500 bucks! shit. I know its worth it in the long run but being unemployed makes me very nervous about tapping into my reserves [aka the tuition fund]. grrr.
the government sucks.
I'm refiling my taxes so I can be considered a HI resident again and so I can pay res tuition [instead of the ludicrous amount for non-res] but now I have to pay almost 500 bucks! shit. I know its worth it in the long run but being unemployed makes me very nervous about tapping into my reserves [aka the tuition fund]. grrr.
the government sucks.
Tonight was one of the best nights I've had so far since I've been back.
What did I do? Oh nothing all too spectacular. I went over to Grant's house for the evening. First I watched him carefully clean his car and do all the little things he does to it [it took him over an hour!]. He also taught me how an engine works, but don't ask me to explain it because I still don't know jack. heh. Then we had sweet and sour spareribs, coleslaw, rice, and sashimi for dinner. mmm. It was sooo ono. After de-linting my big tarepanda we watched Bring It On while eating our popcorn-arare mix. yum. It was a really good movie although I would've liked to see a little more character development and story on the East Compton side. *shrug* oh well. Despite my natural dislike of cheerleaders, I still think its hecka cool to watch their routines. Shit, I could never kick my legs that high and still be able to walk. haha When it was over we ate ice cream while watching tv and then I went home. I wish I could spend more Saturday evenings with him like this. It was so nice. ^_^;
I don't know if it's still because I hadn't seen him in so long but every time I see him I can't help but fall in love with him all over again. Just looking at him makes me smile and I get that tingly and mushy feeling inside. Tonight it was also because I got to see him with the glasses and poofy hair I hadn't seen since his visit to SF. Its funny how seeing people in their natural state makes them even cuter sometimes. I'm so happy I have him in my life. =)
What did I do? Oh nothing all too spectacular. I went over to Grant's house for the evening. First I watched him carefully clean his car and do all the little things he does to it [it took him over an hour!]. He also taught me how an engine works, but don't ask me to explain it because I still don't know jack. heh. Then we had sweet and sour spareribs, coleslaw, rice, and sashimi for dinner. mmm. It was sooo ono. After de-linting my big tarepanda we watched Bring It On while eating our popcorn-arare mix. yum. It was a really good movie although I would've liked to see a little more character development and story on the East Compton side. *shrug* oh well. Despite my natural dislike of cheerleaders, I still think its hecka cool to watch their routines. Shit, I could never kick my legs that high and still be able to walk. haha When it was over we ate ice cream while watching tv and then I went home. I wish I could spend more Saturday evenings with him like this. It was so nice. ^_^;
I don't know if it's still because I hadn't seen him in so long but every time I see him I can't help but fall in love with him all over again. Just looking at him makes me smile and I get that tingly and mushy feeling inside. Tonight it was also because I got to see him with the glasses and poofy hair I hadn't seen since his visit to SF. Its funny how seeing people in their natural state makes them even cuter sometimes. I'm so happy I have him in my life. =)
Friday, June 08, 2001
Even though I really have nothing to do at times, I still find no motivation whatsoever to reply to emails, so if you're one of them in my inbox, i really do apologize. Hopefully this will pass soon.
In other news, I think my horoscope is trying to give me a big fat hint:
Make this a working weekend, to the extent that your plans allow. Not to nag, but you've got to take care of some business. How does one eat an elephant, you ask? One bite at a time. Get organized, be productive and feel free to partake of an outing by night. Be careful not to overdo it, however. Don't rely on luck to enrich poor decisions
Damn school stuff. I don't want to fill out the loan papers. And I'm so dreading the subject assesment test in August that I've reverted back to biting my nails. dammit. yes, its a bad NASTY habit [one that I've had ever since my 2nd grade teacher threatened to flunk me], but I only do it when I'm in school now if that makes it any better. heh. I'm trying to cut back, really. ;P
In other news, I think my horoscope is trying to give me a big fat hint:
Make this a working weekend, to the extent that your plans allow. Not to nag, but you've got to take care of some business. How does one eat an elephant, you ask? One bite at a time. Get organized, be productive and feel free to partake of an outing by night. Be careful not to overdo it, however. Don't rely on luck to enrich poor decisions
Damn school stuff. I don't want to fill out the loan papers. And I'm so dreading the subject assesment test in August that I've reverted back to biting my nails. dammit. yes, its a bad NASTY habit [one that I've had ever since my 2nd grade teacher threatened to flunk me], but I only do it when I'm in school now if that makes it any better. heh. I'm trying to cut back, really. ;P
Thursday, June 07, 2001
digirice no longer seems to like www.digitalrice.com/members/bhurdie...blah blah and now only works with members.digitalrice.com/bhurdie. so yah. you know what to do. I even updated. woop!
oh yah...and did i mention that i'm working on a redesign? it looks kinda phat yo. but then again, compared to some other peoples' it looks like a kid did it. but hey, I like being a kid. =D and i have no idea why, but every friggen time i try to incorporate a nice blue into my design it ALWAYS comes out purple. dangit. its a sign. so yes, be ready for purple if and when i decide to get that domain of my own...in oh...a couple months? lol
Monday, June 04, 2001
Been cooped up in the house the last...oh..4 days or so. [going to Office Depot saturday and to lunch for 45 minutes today doesn't quite count] Haven't had anything to do. Strike that. I haven't had anybody to do anything with. Grant works weekend nights and lifts in the morning. That leaves just about 2-3 hours with me in the middle of the day...which isn't always worth the drive over so sometimes I don't see him at all. Yes, my life has come to revolve around grant's. why? Because all the friends that I used to have here all moved to the mainland. woopie. Pathetic isn't it? At least Davee is coming soon. And I suppose I still have Tanya, when she isn't working or doing house chores. *sigh* I'm trying not to get all depressed about it all but its hard when the only thing to look forward to is school and that's still 3 whole weeks away. =/
But no, I don't regret coming back.
I will make it worth it. goshdammit
But no, I don't regret coming back.
I will make it worth it. goshdammit
Sunday, June 03, 2001
Now I remember why I can't stand being around my mom at times. She does the stupidest, most annoying things as if the world only revolves around her. For example: she decided she should throw away the sauce packets for the potstickers even though the bag is only half empty and she's not the only one who eats them. All because she doesn't use it and because she's a self-centered $#@%&!!!!
argh!
I don't think I'll be able to maintain my sanity over the next year. >.<
argh!
I don't think I'll be able to maintain my sanity over the next year. >.<
Friday, June 01, 2001
Bad karma example #16: Apparently my mail hasn't been forwarded so I called the Berkeley post office to correct it and now I have to call back for the supervisor tomorrow morning at 8am Cali time. That's 5 fucking AM Hawaii time. dammit.
Example #17: The evil roomie told me I was sent a "dental claim" from my dental insurance provider. I just know this is another fuck up. Stay tuned...
GAH!!!!!!
Example #17: The evil roomie told me I was sent a "dental claim" from my dental insurance provider. I just know this is another fuck up. Stay tuned...
GAH!!!!!!
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