"get well please"

isn't that so cute! gosh i luv him. =)

good night!

YAY!




which children's storybook character are you?

this quiz was made by colleen

it's a miracle. i went to sleep in pain and soo utterly miserable and i woke up totally fine! Well, except for being a little light headed and weak.

YAY FOR DRUGS! =)

being a baby is fun sometimes. ;P

marbhurd: leeeeessssssssssstttttttteeeeeer
me: save me
Lester: hello:D
me:: i'm dying
me:: bleh
L: what?
me:: i'm dying
me:: you're just going to sit there and ask questions when someone tells you they're dying? remind me to never come to you when I'm in life or death situations
me:: haha
L: what are you dying from
me:: i'm sick =(
L: :[
me:: pity me. lol
L: what kind of sick
L: *hug*
me:: i have body aches, possible fever....i woke up with intense sinus pressure this mornign and my back hurts like i just got run over...not like i'd know but you get the gist. lol
L: doctor honey
me:: how does one become so yuckie overnight?
L: :[
L: i dont know
L: *soup for u*
me:: in your case...you become yuckie from having one too many sake bombs
me:: hahaha
L: lol
L: where is grant
me:: school?
me:: i normally don't like being sick and just suck it up...but just this once i want to be a baby about it and get taken care of. haha
L: awww
L: poor baby
L: :P

yeah...that's all i want right now. poor me indeed. haha i'm such a baby.

ugh. i'm sick.

Body aching, head-about-to-explode-pounding, sinus pressure, and a possible fever to boot.

I had to leave school early. ugh.
I can't be sick! I have way too much shit to do this week. its not fair. =..(
*crawls back into bed*

and the addiction continues...

so i'm checking the starbucks website just to see if they had any store hours [dont so i have to call now dengit] when i browsed upon a nifty little thing called a starbucks card [original no?] I actually thought it'd be a good [or bad, depending on how you look at it] idea for me to get one...until i read:
At this time, the Starbucks Card is not yet accepted at all airport, grocery and bookstore locations, or stores in Hawaii, Puerto Rico, Guam and outside North America.

dammit all to hell. first they didn't have white mocha until just recently and now this. how the hell am i supposed to live comfortably with conditions like this?! we don't even have a freakin target! grrr.

someone save me!

I found out today that I got a 15 cent raise as of April 1st.

WOOHOO!
[sincerety or sarcasm...take it as you will. ;P]

dammit...there goes my goal of not getting coffee. I needed to get massive amounts of work finished so i went to starbucks to work...and ordered a grande white mocha! agh!! and now here it is 11:45pm and i'm still wide awake and wired. dengit.

But hey, at least i got soooo much shit done. I'm so proud of myself!! =) yay!

I think I may be forming an addiction to Starbucks. It's Horrible! Not the drinks really...just the fact that i'm wasting my damn money there. So far I've tried to avoid getting any kind of coffee...well, I failed only one of 4 times...so at least then I won't get that other addiction for caffeine. dammit. It's not like I can't steam my own milk and add syrup right? ugh

Are you Addicted to the Internet?

55%

Average@Internet-User.com (41% - 60%)
You seem to have a healthy balance in your life when it comes to the internet and life away from the computer. You know enough to do what you want online without looking like an idiot (most of the time). You even have your own Yahoo club or online journal! But you enjoy seeing your friends and going out to enjoy life away from your computer.
The Are you Addicted to the Internet? Quiz at Stvlive.com!

link via luckykat via julie! =P

i think i get too bored sometimes. Questions keep popping into my head. Like...

If you were on death row, what would be your final meal?
--Sushi, jjajangmyun, and a strawberry icee.

if the world was ending at midnight tonight, what would you do between now and then?
--tell all the people close to me that i love them, absorb the sights/feelings of all the things i love about the world/my life, then end the night by falling asleep while snuggled next to grant.

Would you rather be cast for Real World or Road Rules?
--tough choice...though i think road rules would be more fun, its just a boring show to watch for me. So i'd much rather live in a new place and get pissed off by annoying roommates. ;P

If you could live the life of any tv character, who would it be and why?
--I'd either be Sydney Bristow on Alias because she kicks ass, while seeing the world, and has a kick ass dad, or I'd be one of the sisters on Charmed because they kick ass too, using their special powers, and look great while doing it too. [we all know that its really because i'm jealous of their sisterly bond, right? lol.]

Make it stop!!!

ugh. i'm hungry. strike that. i'm starving. I decided not to pick up something on the way home from school. but then dinner at home sucked ass [yes i'm picky...yet cooked frozed teri chicken with garlic potatoes...no rice!!! isn't all that great if you ask me. i need rice dammit] so i thought, ok, maybe i'll go out. But then i needed to borrow money from my mom, if only because it was too much hassle to go to the atm at 8pm. but then she wanted me to pick up stamps because it was "on my way" which is sorta was, but really wasn't. so then i decided i'd rather not eat than have to go through all the hassle of feeling indebted and forced to do shit. And even though i was starving my stubbornness refuses to let me go eat.

After half an hour, i at one of those little one serving cups of vanilla ice cream with the wooden spoon. That was my dinner.

boohoo. my tummy hurts. I think i'm starting slowly starve myself, even though i do seem to eat. I need to find better food. but yet...i also have to stop being so damn picky.

dammit. i'm half mad at myself because i'm not eating [i keep telling myself that i have to eat only things that are good for me, or else don't eat at all], half mad at this household for having only bad food to consume, and half hoping i can finally eat a well balanced and delicious meal in the near future. I swear my mom's cooking sucks ass. But why complain when i'm not the one cooking right? bleh. and yes, i'm a math teacher. that made up 150%. =P

did you know that the dominant white gene in a cat, combined with blue eyes, has been linked to deafness in cats? no wonder one of my old cats didn't seem to respond often.

yeah, i'm a geek reading up on cat color genes. pretty interesting stuff ya know. lol

i finally got to talk to Won after months. yay! Unfortunately, she got laid off from arthur anderson [stupid houston partners!!!]...but good news is that she's happy about it! she never liked auditing [and she's now gonna pursue her real interest...tax. haha don't ask me why]. i'm happy for her...even though she's still unemployed. But she says she's gonna come back to visit for a while in the meantime. yay!!

i need more friends in the "honolulu area" [haha. sounds better than "hawaii" if only because the latter implies that i have NO friends in this entire state. lol]

oh..and the kittens have disappeared. my mom scared them i think! but i think they're still somewhere in our backyard. the search is on!

late last night i heard what i thought were kitten meows. its a unique and cute sound. But it was dark outside so i couldn't see anything. well, i just checked now and we do indeed have kittens in our yard! The mom, [this evil black cat] apparently gave birth under our hedge to 3 black kittens with blue eyes! They're so cute. Too bad the mom is evil and hisses and looks like it'll attack you at any moment. Let's hope that keeps my mom from getting them to the humane society any time soon. hehehe.

i miss my old cat...the kitten producing machine. haha. at least then i had the trust so i could actually hold and play with them. I seriously need a cat soon. =)

yay! i've gone jogging 2 days in a row! yay me!

i would've done more than the 25 situps today, but my abs still hurt from yesterday's 200. maybe i should rest a week again. haha. and maybe i'll work myself up to 3 days next week. hmm...or maybe not.

but still..yay me!

ok. things are a little better. its nice to at least get a small resolution out before the weekend.

yay friday!

i really tried to be pleasant and understanding. But instead i guess i was just too sarcastic and indirect. I thought it had blown over until i was saying goodbye and things blew up again, just as predicted below. dammit. Now i don't know where to go from here...but if my horoscope for today is at least part correct, maybe i'll see a way soon.

not only am i hurting him, but i'm hurting myself in the process.
i hate this.

damn. i hate when my horoscope is right and tells me not to be stubborn and unpleasant...only because it knows me too well. dammmit

"A clash, squall or conflict over career, money or love could blow up unexpectedly. You would do better to deal with it directly, forthrightly and expeditiously instead of compounding the felony by being stubborn, aggressive, icy, unpleasant or, incredibly, opting to ignore the brouhaha in the misplaced hope that it will cure itself."

its never fun to hear criticism from people you love. Actually, not really criticism..but just areas where you need improvement. And it doesn't help when my sometimes-on-rare-occasions-low-self-esteem translates these things into "you're ugly, fat, and letting yourself go."

hmph. i'm half mad and half depressed. i don't know if i should punch a wall or cry myself to sleep.
bah. i hate when that happens.

don't you love hate email? i know i do. it makes me laugh every time. its refreshing actually.

and i love how people assume i'm talking about other [online] drama that's going on with other people. sheesh. like i have nothing better to do than worry about that?

oh yeah...and i still think that sloane might be sydney's dad...even though i don't want him to be. they keep using the line "what if sydney was your daughter..." or something to that effect. hello!

poor jack. not so kick ass in tonight's episode. =/

who the heck decides to turn the channel in the middle of a show? My dad that's who. And not just any show...but Alias. And not just in the middle of Alias, but right at the end when they're talking and i miss everything leading up to them making out. wth? What the hell did he say?

yes, my temper got the better of me [and for something so trivial. =(]. I am such a bitch when I get started. I'm mean too. I think i need to work on that.

Actually, no, i just need to move out. I am a lot more sane and calm when I'm away from my family. Reason #one billion and one.

oh yeah....and the merrie monarch festival this year rocked. check some of it out.

aiyah...

there's so much shit hitting the fan the last few days. not good. I just hope that all people involved can finally put matters to rest and move on peacefully. Grudges are bad...very bad. And bitterness eats away at a person's soul. Just dump that extra baggage.

This goes for you too.

the day in review:

woke up with puffy eyes
half of my 2nd period was on a field trip
school breezed by
ate not-so-good sushi [the unagi was mushy!!]
had yummy green tea smoothie boba
car almost blew up when i got to school
class ended early
muscles hurt from yesterday. *dying*
grant is a sweetie and i miss him daily
many hopes and wishes to move out *formulating plan*
going to sleep now...Jal ja!!

i seriously need a cat.

the shit hit the fan tonight. Now grant dispises my family even more. So do I, in fact. My eyes are extremely red and puffy as proof.

Basically what it boils down to is that my reputation is no longer pristine in my mom's eyes and my sister has no concept of morality.

I *need* to move out soon.

From a convo a little while ago:
...
me: ok. gotta go jogging. ttyl
R: what
R: you got back into that?

WTH kind of response is that? And let it be known that i find this individual extremely irritating these days. I never want my children to have him as a teacher...ever.

During our trip to Hanauma Bay last week, grant finally decided that he had gotten too out of shape and flabby. He couldn't stand seeing the "non-beautiful" bodies of old tourists and vowed he'd never let himself get that far. So he started working out again this week. Damn him. Now i'm getting inspired to work out [and floss daily too, but that's an entirely different story] so I finally went jogging today for the first time in months. Dammit. I'm so out of shape. I felt like my lungs and trachea were about to cave in at one point. Not a nice feeling. But even though I walked about half way, i'm very proud of myself because I took this big first step to getting back in shape. yay me! I even did 100 situps!

now my sister is doing taebo, and even though she's lost a bunch of pounds [mainly due to pills] her ass and lower body still looks bad. Sorry to say, but it doesn't look like taebo works that part very much...from my point of view. ;P

dammit to hell. I hate people making me feel so damn guilty...especially when i deserve it. GAH!!!!!

dammit dammit dammit dammit.
grrrrrr.

sometimes i wonder if its time to just throw in the towel. this blogging and web journalling really doesn't fit into my schedule much anymore. Maybe its because i'm still in school. But even when i get out, i'll still be in school most of the time. Plus, you know how teens are, they're even more connected than I am so the chances of them finding this space is more than likely. That scares me. But still, i don't know if i'm ready to say goodbye just yet. we'll see. Or maybe I'm just too sentimental to let things i'm attached to go.

bah. i need sleep. At least i can still use this place to vent. hehe.