My Likelihood of Committing Murder is -42% !!!!!

If you have a score of 0 or Below: You are the perfect being. Any psychotic tendencies you may possess are neatly balanced by you desire to help others and your devotion to the lord above. Well you could be an excellent human being, but you're most likely in denial. Try the test again, and try to tell the truth this time. If you still get a score of 0 then you may very well be the savior of the entire human race.

This is SOOO off. If I'm the savior of the entire human race, then y'all are screwed. I deserve higher...like a +42 instead:

If you have a score of 21 to 50: Your hit list if pretty short, but you do have one. You know the difference between right and wrong, but you just don't see what the fuss is all about. If you had a choice, you would probably head off down the path of goodness, but if cornered you will fight your way out like a rabid dog. Your balance between light and dark leaves your world bright enough to be "normal" and dark enough so that no one sees the severed head in the closet.

haha *evil laugh*

[link from ms. evil]

PS..thanks evil for showing how a math teacher overlooks a negative sign. LOL.

I'm going to dinner and then bowling with a bunch of Grant's classmates now. YAY! I haven't been bowling in years. I'm gonna suck...since I've always sucked. Goal for the evening: To rank no lower than 2nd to the last in the group. hehe But it should be a blast. yay!!

Good thing I finished grading those exams. Grades are due tomorrow. YUCK!

Crazy things you'll only hear from today's high school students
(or...What I heard from my high school students today. lol)
Student A: Miss...stand by her so you'll get crabs.
student B: Look, I just went to the gynocologist so I'm clean and not pregnant okay!

C: Miss, I'm gonna die in 3 months. He told me so.

D: He said the first of my future kids to pop out will be a boy...and I did have a boy!

How do you know if you have a sinus infection? Other than going to the doctor and having him tell you so.

Dammit. The right side of my head feels like it's gonna explode! And my throat hurts from all the fucking coughing. Bah!!!

I HATE BEING NOT HEALTHY!!!

erg. 3 interview calls in one day...plus one yesterday. I've turned them all down, yet I still have no official confirmation that I'm hired where I think I am. I'm nervous. *crossing fingers*

one thing I've noticed though...females that call take rejection a lot more politely than males. Good thing all of today's ones were women.

Example:
Me: "I've already been offered a position."
Response: "Oh yay! Congratulations. Good luck! Okay, byebye!"

lol

hehehe...perhaps this should be the test to end all tests. ;P

YAY!!!!

DaeHanMinGuk ManSe!!!

lol


Talk about compromising positions. ;P
Look at the guy's face! hahaha

I think I'm getting sick.

I woke up this morning with something stuck in my throat. Then I went through the class day extremely irritable...mainly because I have a bunch of stupid students [stupid as in not knowing when to shut the fuck up and listen - not stupid as in well, stupid], and then by the time I get home I have body aches and a headache. Even now, after a 5 hour nap, I still hurt. =(

I really don't want to go to work tomorrow, but I don't want to sound like a flake/weak ass mofo calling in sick now. erg. Besides, I need the money.

I think i'll go to sleep now.

Go Korea! Beat that Spanish ass! lol

I hate when people turn things against me. But at the same time, I can see where he was coming from. Dammit. I could never stay mad at him for very long. It's always nice to be happy and without worries, don't you think? =)

Have a happy day peoples!

well don't i feel like the bitch today. ugh

New song of the moment above: DJ Encore - I see Right Through To You. woo.

yup. my girlfriend skills officially suck. You don't ever want me to be your gf. I will just irk you and disappoint you when you come back from vacations.

pish posh.

So Grant comes back tomorrow morning. He must be getting ready to go to the airport as we speak. How do I feel about all this? Honestly, I'm not sure. Part of me is elated because I miss him so much. But another part of me is afraid of what I'll do or say when he comes back. I have all these pent up frustrations and insecurities and I know its the last thing he wants to hear when he first comes back from his vacation.

My plan: Just to keep acting as though he's 2000+ miles away. If he calls so be it. I'm not going to exert any more energy than he is. I need a balance. Both sides of the equation have to stay equal...just like with the Properties of Equality that we're covering in summer school.

Oh God, I just referred to Algebra in my blog. It's the end of the world as we know it. ;P

WOOHOO!!!!

Korea beat Italy!!!

I think its the start of a great day, don't you? =) *crossing fingers*

These are so cool. I want one.

dude, i take a 3 hour nap just to sleep off the negativity and what do i get when I wake up? More fucking bitching from my mom. I didn't even do anything and just kept my big mouth shut. WHAT THE HELL YO!! Dammit, I don't need this shit. My moving out deadline has just been moved up to September, or whenever the hell i get my first paycheck. Regardless!
Fuckin A....

I guess I can kiss that vacation to Cali goodbye. =( grrr

fuuuuuuuuuuuccccckkkkk

Everything was just peachy until i came home. errrrr.....my mom is such a bitch!!

Dammit. There goes all those warm fuzzy feelings out the window. ARGH!!!

Yay! Today has been very productive indeed.

I've already told you how I went out and bought myself goodies. And I even ate dinner! [which I haven't been doing the last week or so]

But I've just now completed putting together my lesson plan for tomorrow, 2 quizzes for the next 2 days and planning which sections to cover on what days for the rest of the summer term. YAY!!

I really do feel happier when I get things accomplished. I think I'm setting a goal for myself to either jog or hit the beach tomorrow after work. I hope I don't get lazy and I can pull it off. *crossing fingers*

Can you just imagine what it must be like in Korea right now? Soccer mania must be making the whole country crazy fun. Damn. I wish I was there. If anything, I really want a Red Devils soccer jersey. Boo.

I've decided to make sharing mp3s a regular thing here. I took off all the other mp3s from before, but i'll hopefully have one at least once a week up there at the top of this blog. I don't guarantee you'll like it, but you never know. ;P

If you haven't noticed, I'm trying to make today's posts positive and not so depressing. Maybe then I won't be so miserable. Is it working? Let me get back to you on that one. hmm...

I finally picked a fragrance of my own. After months/years of searching for that one scent that fit perfectly I finally found it. L'Eau d'Issey Lumieres d'Issey. It's Issey Miyake's 2002 summer scent. I mean, its practically summer here all year round right? hehe I really liked the summer scent last year, but didn't decide to get it until too late. But maybe its good that I waited. Yay! I'm all happy now. I love shopping. I think its even better than sex. O.o lol

omg, I've been going around with only one earing on. I went to alamoana, sephora, and the 99 ranch market food court with only one earing! how funny!

Anyway...

Big question of the day: Kimbap or Bubble tea?

Kimbap of course! MMM...

My kimbap story: In Korean 102 one day someone asked, "How do you make kimbap?" and my joker classmate replied, "you just take the kim and the bap and mix it together." Hohohohooheoheohe. Yeah, that one flew right by me but I just laughed right along with everyone else. I knew bap was rice, but kim? And kimbap? Absolutely no clue. 10 months later in a korean restaurant IN KOREA it finally hits me. OOhhhhhh! Kimbap! I get it! hahahaha Kimbap is Korean sushi, and kim is seaweed. Hehe. So don't worry if you're ever slow to catch a joke. Just think of me and the 10 months it took me to get it. hahaha

It wasn't even that funny of a joke. lol

YAY for free long distance. I already got to talk to 2 best friends. woohoo! I would've called one more since its her bday, but the ho never gave me her number. hehe. Maybe next time.

I'm happier now. Its temporary.

Oh! and this morning I awoke after having the weirdest dream! I dreamed I was going to my wedding. I've never ever dreamed about getting married before! But I happened to be helping out at someone else's wedding first, but they fell behind schedule and all of a sudden, I was late for my own wedding! It always has to be something like that....especially being late...because its my biggest anxiety: being late for something extremely important.

And in my dream, my mom stayed behind because she wanted to watch the wedding we were already at. Yeah, go figure.

In addition to my mass jealously, I also seem to have something weighing on my heart. I dunno. It feels almost like when someone breaks up with you. I seriously feel pangs on my heart and i contract for a second. Its like a big sadness. I don't know why tho. Maybe its just the hurt.

Anyway, there's only 3.5 more days till grant comes back and I keep trying to play scenarios in my head about what I'll say to him after he comes back. "Hi babe! How was your trip?!" or "Oh hi. Nice of you to call." or "hi. i was thinking of going to that thing at the zoo featuring jake shimabukuro. But you're probably too jet lagged and busy so I won't ask you to go." or "go out? Sorry, I have to plan for school tonight...and tomorrow...and the day after that. How bout you call back oh say...after July 17th. You should be used to not talking to me by now anyway."

Yeah, the bitterness just goes on and on and on. I'm so evil.

I know what it is. I'm fucking jealous. The only reason I'm letting myself get all bent out of shape over such a stupid issue is because he's the lucky bastid that got to go to Japan while I had to stay home in freakin Hawaii. Sure, "Hawaii is great" you say. "You should feel lucky to live hawaii" you say. Yeah, you try living here all your life with friends thousands of miles away. Its a fucking rock I say. I'd imagine it to be almost like being stuck in the middle of Kansas. Woo fun stuff you know. I've never been good at containing my envy or jealousy. It never fails to rear it's ugly head, and this time it appeared with a vengence. I want to get away...and if its by myself so be it. He got his vacation, I'm going to see to it that I get mine dammit.


bitter bitter bitch bitch whine whine. yeah yeah, let me get it out of my system. its not like i'm forcing you to visit and read my complaining.

It's a miracle. I got a postcard from japan. woo

Yeah, things like these aren't very fun when you're still bitter about stupid things. *shrug* Oh well.

I am thinking I will take a trip to SF soon...maybe. I hope. hmm...

School went great. Only problem is killing so much time. erg. 5 hours is waaaay too long.

I'm glad summer school finally started though. Work is great. I like being productive and busy. It takes the mind off mindless clutter and stupid things to worry about.

But then I have those quiet moments when all I can do is think about it. And I don't like it. I don't like feeling hurt and angry. And I don't even know why I'm letting it bother me so much. Its just a fucking phone call. He's only going to be gone 2 weeks. What's the point in getting worked up about anything? Sheesh, I need to chill. I just wish I could take my own advice. grrr...Stop it up there already!!

6am wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

*very anxious*
I'll survive...i hope. ;P

Have a nice day everyone!!! =D

Summer school starts tomorrow. ACK!

I have 26 students, one of whom I taught this past semester. The babo failed first semester so I'll only have him for 2.5 weeks, but I'm just happy I have him in my class for that long. Even though he makes me want to kick him from time to time, he really does crack me up. That's the only thing making me look forward to tomorrow. God only knows how torturous the FIVE hours of classtime is going be. ugh.

I'm trying to plan things for tomorrow to ensure that I have no dead time, but it seems rather difficult. I will have to see how things go tomorrow. *crossing fingers*

I also have to start planning for the next week since the summer school office requires 2 days notice for xerox jobs and I'm a big worksheet ho. hehe. It's all about busywork! =)

Pray for me.

I think I'm finally getting better at this. New entry!

One week and counting...that's how long Grant's been gone. Sure, to you that may not seem like very long, but take into account that his trip is now half done and he has yet to call like he said he would. I almost feel like an abandoned pet. Left and forgotten.

Bitterness is not healthy, but then again, its better than being depressed.

Its 7am. SEVEN AM! And I've been up since 5:30. Why? You try sleeping longer after 11 hours of sleep.

Damn me for "taking a nap" at 6pm. My naps always last at least 3 hours.

*sigh* I guess that means I should be productive today, no?

And summer school starts Thursday. ACK!

dang, they didn't even look at my portfolio that I slaved over all last night!

But I did get a job offer. Suck part is that I'd probably have to teach one period of Social Studies and have a multi-track school year.

No thanks.

I told them I'm waiting to hear from the high school, which is true. I just didn't tell them that I basically already have that job. heh. Gotta let them know by Friday that I won't accept. I feel bad though. They're hiring for THREE math positions!! >O.o<

Are you bored? Yeah, so am I.
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Half of me is still waiting for that phone call...Today is Sunday, the day we always have phone calls. If he doesn't call tonight, I will definitely be peeved.

Four more hours until the big World Cup match between Korea and the US. *anxious*

Who do you think will win? Who do you want to win? If Korea won, do you think they would be happy moreso because its the US and because of all their history together, or because its just a win? hmm....


Who do I want to win? hehe...wouldn't you like to know. ;P

Ugh. Giving my portfolio an overhaul for my interview tomorrow. Part of me wants to go, but another part thinks its a waste of time. *shrug* I gotta be a professional first I guess. hehe.Wow, I'm a professional! =D

Thank you lester..for giving me the kick in the butt I so needed. No more ruts! Or at least I'll try really hard. =)

hehe. I'm bored so I went looking for the mp3.

It's called Wind's Nocturne by Luna from the anime Lunar: Silver Star Story

I know...I should just go to sleep while I'm ahead, but I can't. I keep thinking that if I sleep, I'll miss a phone call. ;P

aww...*sniff* It's so cute...and sad.

What more can you ask for? Animation of a cat singing a sad song in...Japan? Karaoke style! hehe

link from lester bhurd "evil lester". Thanks for cheering me up some. :)

Yay! Email from my cute high school math teacher, soon to be department head, makes me a little bit happier, especially as its pertaining to my future employment.

Maria, I talked to our school registrar. She informed me that you have a job at Radford, but we are just waiting for the ok to go ahead to hire you. She also said to go to the other interviews anyway. It's good to see what's out there.

Happier..=)

I miss grant.

A lot.

=(

DAMMIT!!

Really first bad impression: Telling a principal from a middle school that you don't really want to teach middle school but you'll come in for an interview anyway.

HELLO?!
Yeah, I like making myself look bad...all the time. *cringe* >.<

*bangs phone against head* stupid! stupid!

2nd of the month. OMG!

Btw, the pap was horrible as usual. At least its over. yay!

Uck. I just came back from my dental appointment. Can I just say how much I hate going through that ritual? I hate the pain and I hate the yucky tasting flouride. But at least I have no cavities. YAY!

Now I just have to look forward to my annual pap exam...in 2 hours. Yeah, I'm masochistic enough to schedule the 2 worst appointments in one day. Woopie!

Went to take a nap at 6pm yesterday. Didn't wake up until 12 hours later...this morning!

What a waste of time, but oh how wonderful sleep is. Why can't it always be like that. =)

mmm...krispy kreme. It's about friggen time!

there goes what was left of my diet. ;P

It keeps slipping my mind that the centennial of Korean immigration celebration will get into full force next year. As I was browsing the calendar to see if anything cool was coming up, I noticed it says "Pop Concert" on May 31, 2003. I wonder who would be singing. I hope no one lame. And if its singers like Finkl, Shinhwa, etc...I'm going to get way too excited I won't be able to stand the wait. haha *crossing fingers*

dang...its 3 am already? This is why I hate online games. What a waste of valuable sleep time. *huff*

Good night! er...Good Morning to most of you. ;P

damn. I missed Grant's call while I was going through Jack in the Box drive-thru. Dammit. Do I have the best luck or what? ;P

whew! I smell like coffee!

I guess 2.5 hours at Starbucks will do that do ya. I feel all productive today. Yay!

=*( Just got really lonely after G's sn popped up on aim. I know its not him, but his brother or dad.

I miss him too much already. =(

The first one's for you lester...

Congratulations, you sweetheart. You enjoy wild popularity because of your sweetness and your caring nature. Selfless and sensitive, you care deeply about others and you worry sometimes about what others think about you. But people everywhere love you, so that's okay.
What kind of bubble tea are you?

See what Care Bear you are.


Take the 100 Acre Personality Quiz!

You will marry JAMES BOND (most recently played by Pierce Brosnan) from the James Bond movies, live in many expensive penthouses filled with many girls and many martinis (shaken, not stirred), and spend your days driving explosive foreign cars and spying on villains with big egos and small brains.

What's YOUR M * A * S * H future?

I'm starting to tire of this design but I know I don't have the web or designer skills to come up with anything spectacular...so i guess I'll stick with it until I get struck by that lightening bolt of inspiration.

I give mad props to everyone out there with that instinct of design. You know who you are. =)

I'm all alone now. Boohar.

*secretly plotting world domination* muahahha

which Episode II character are you?

Queen of Naboo. You could have a split personality - simply to hide who you really are. You are extremely polite and gentle. However, if needs be, you will take action and can be a very good leader. You have the power to make people believe in you - use this power. The one you love could also end up being the one you hate.

link via ms. evil.

And let me also say...

DAMN YOU &%#$#@ LAKERS!!!!

ok. I feel a little better now.

Eeew. And BiBimBap "flavor" is already hard to take for some people (my bf...he can't take any spicyness). lol

But you'd think the guy would've told his boss "Hey, I'm missing part of my finger. You might want to look in those rice cakes before you sell them." *slaps forehead*

Haircut pics...per JP's request...i was getting around to it...really. ;P




So yeah, its basically my old do, except shorter and now its layered and frames my face. I think I shoud get it cut more often. (duh)

On a side note, what is up with my one eye being chinkier when i smile? Its a Korean thing isn't it? I swear it happens to them all. hah.
And please excuse the mess that is my room. Laundry does not like to be folded here. hehe