Just like everyone else...I was curious...

If I were a work of art, I would be Sandro Botticelli's Birth of Venus. Apparently, that means...

"I am a beautiful and alluring composition, not afraid to show off a good deal of bare flesh. People surround me and gaze at me with the adulation due a goddess and friendly breezes gently push me along my path in life."

LMAO!!!

Which work of art would you be? The Art Test

i'm bored. I have to go to the high school to teach a lesson in a few minutes. Tomorrow is my last day [yay! shhhh] I dunno what to get my mentor teacher though. Any ideas? Anyway, i dunno why i'm writing in here now. This is a pointless entry so don't mind me. I just thought I should write in here since I haven't in a bit. Okay, off I go. ta ta!

ps....Alias kicked butt tonight! and the previews look exciting. But I bet you the mole they've discovered is actually her dad! I dunno. I like thinking of these twists. My reason? Because all the guy said was that the target was "Bristow." hello? duh!

or maybe not. I just like making things more complicated than they really are. And most of the time I'm wrong. *sigh* Looks like this time is no different. lol yeah, i'm a dork. @________________@

I'm so excited and happy! I recently got an email from a long lost internet friend. She was the first internet person that I ever met up with. Wait. Strike that. I met people at the HOT concert here but she was the first internet friend that I actually met on a more personal basis and on my own. yeah. She lived in Berkeley and it was from that meeting, or more like the subsequent return trip "home" (back to rose's dorm) that I acquired "many traumatic memories of (colma) to last me a lifetime." Read my recap of that day here.

Anyhoo...I got the email a few days ago and now I find out that she's now engaged and will be in hawaii for a short while during the Christmas holiday! I'm so excited that I'm gonna get to see my dongsaeng again!! She's the one that first introduced me to Berkeley (the town, not the school) and Jello flan! I so wish I could've met up with her when I actually lived up there last year, but it turns out she moved back to Korea about a year ago. !!! So many changes and I'm so jealous! Korea!! hehehe. And it all started because we were both in an H.O.T chatroom at the same time. hahahah

Stranger things *have* happened. ;P

Dang, I really need to put these longer posts into my journal instead. *shrug* I'm lazy. Bear with me until finals are over please? =) Yay! 21 more days till pauline is here and 23 more days till Christmas! ACK! >o.O<

I've been MIA for a little bit mainly because I got sick. Bleh. First it was just the sinuses, then it moved into my throat, and then into my chest. After that you know its all down hill from there. Because it was in my chest I couldn't breathe as freely and I got tired really fast. Just walking a little bit was exhausting. On Thursday, after walking around the mall for a bit we came home so I could write my paper and go to school but first I had to nap a little because I was so tired. Next thing I know I wake up an hour later with a bad headache and I'm super hot. I was so dizzy that I took an advil, turned on the AC and went back to sleep. 2 more hours later and I see Grant still downloading drifting videos on my computer and I notice that my seminar had already started. *shrug* oh well, at least I felt better.

So we went back to the mall and walked around the other phase, picked up a shirt, then came home to make soap. Yep, I had purchased a soap kit earlier in the day and grant got all excited about the possibilities. But dang! That shit is hard work! My first attempts turned out a little wrinkled, lumpy, or color bled. But hey, we were experimenting with some things. I didn't use the whole kit yet but so far we have some pretty cute hearts withing hearts, a turtle that looks like its underwater, and a whale within a clear block. I'd show you pictures but I don't have a digicam and it won't be another 25 days till grant get's a card reader for his *wink* shhh don't tell him. of course you know the card reader is mostly gonna be for me anyway. haha. ;P

There's a sister of someone I know that I really do not like. I met her for the first time the other week and everything was fine at first but after a while she'd just say some pretty blunt things and me being the sensitive person that I am, I was kind of hurt a couple times. Thank god she's going back to school soon so I won't have to see her again for a while. But I just feel kinda bad for not liking her. I mean, aren't I supposed to like the siblings of friends? well..not all the time I guess, but I just feel bad in this instance.

Tonight she answered the phone and asked who was calling [I hate it when people do this to me to begin with. like why be so dang nosy?] and I said "Maria" but apparently I said it in this "voice" because as she was getting my friend I heard her say "she all said *whiny voice* 'Maria' and used a different voice. haha" Like wtf? I'm sick yo. My voice may sound different and I normally don't say my name to begin with so lay off with the fucking critiques of how I talk and shit. geez. Makes me want to smack her upside the head!

*breathe*cough*hack*
sorry, had to vent. At least she's leaving soon...
voice my ass!

Ryan died in the hospital while reciting his vows to Victoria! WAH! so sad! And I liked his character so much!

I normally don't watch Young and the Restless very often but damn, this shit scene was sad yo!

Wooha!

First [and most important] lesson went very well...except for the fact that I ran out of time at the very very end. *shrug* Plus it's been pouring and dreary all day so the kids were kinda antsy.

Yay! Now all I gotta worry about is my methods lesson. Shouldn't be THAT hard right? *crossing fingers*

Time for ramen now. mmmm =)

Tomorrow is my much afeared double lesson day. Actually, the second lesson isn't so bad since it's just my classmates (all 5 of them). But tomorrow I give my very first lesson to my actual high school algebra class. WAH! Very scary! And don't ask why I waited until the end of the semester to do my first lesson. I'm just smart like that. Next week, my last week observing, I am giving my second lesson. Yes. Very smart indeed. >o.O<

Okay..time for me to freak out now...bye!

dammi!t!!! I forgot to watch Alias!!! wah! boohar. *sniff*

due to all this damn work, the next 3 weeks are surely going to SUCK!!!

i'm currently running on 5 hours of sleep, some pepsi, some mountain dew, and a glazed donut. also take into account that i've had only about 10 hours of sleep this whole weekend and i think i'm getting sick again.

not a good diet but fuckit. i'm tired. i'm taking a nap dammit. g'nite.

one lesson plan down, one to go. i just love how i have 2 lessons to give in one day. wheee.

now if only my hair would dry so i could go to sleep. dangit!

Went shopping yesterday...twice. Why twice? well, let me tell you my little story for the day...

Going to the crowded mall the morning after thanksgiving can be such a stressful time, especially when you're looking really hard for covered parking. But that stress is nothing compared to that of having your bf accidentally hitting a curb slightly while making a turn in the crowded parking structure. This event alone is enough to cause massive amounts of swearing and yelling due to a (slightly) scratched and dented rim. So we find parking quickly after deciding that covered parking isn't gonna happen and we proceed to the stores. Now here we are, one person being super pissed off that he didn't see the curb and the other person feeling like it was all her fault since it was her idea in the first place to go to the damn mall. Neither of us want to be there anymore but what else are we gonna do? So we walk into Waldenbooks and in about 10 minutes, give or take a few, i'm sobbing in the middle of the [extremely small and disappointing] children's section. Yeah...not good at all.

But wait...it gets better! After walking around for a couple hours and getting a few feelings out, we leave the mall having only purchased a box of christmas cards. We then drive speed along the freeway to 99 Ranch Market. Him taking his aggression out on the road and me taking it out on my kleenex. We finally get to the parking lot [after picking up a bulb for his car] and have a little heart to heart. Don't you love heart to heart talks in the middle of public places? There's nothing like crying there either! So yeah..then we had korean food and boba and then went home and he had to go to work.

Not having my shopping needs satisfied at all during the day I decided to just fuck it and go again by myself. Bought a gift at Alas...hit ward warehouse and almost bought a few things but decided to wait until after xmas [gosh i love cinnamon girl! *sniff*] and finally hit Comp USA for part of another gift. Considered buying myself some gifts too but those will have to wait a bit too. Altogether I didn't buy much of anything but I basically know what i'm getting everyone already. I'm just waiting a week or two until it's actually December. I mean, what fun is it to get a present at the beginning of December knowing that you have to wait like 25 freaking days until you can find out what the hell's inside?! Well, that's just how I'd feel. ^_~ So yeah...gonna go shopping in a week or two and get it all done then...hopefully.

Now I have to finish up my lesson plans. whee! *sarcasm*

Thanksgiving lunch went great. Very relaxed and i felt really welcomed!

Dinner on the other hand...I dunno. Just didn't get the right vibe i guess. =/

miss my family =(

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!!!! May you have lots of food today and enjoy much company. =) mmmm food.

and thanks wahine for the idea. hehe. totally forgot about that! =)

dammit. i was just reminded by my mentor teacher that I should bring something to grant's family's house. err..families's houses. dammit. what the hell am i going to bring? i sure as hell can't cook very well, especially since i haven't cooked anything but ramen and scambled eggs since at least august. dangit. i'm screwed. any suggestions?

so i ended up getting SUPER pissed off by the time i got home. part of it is my fault but I just wish some people would do what I secretly wish they'd do dammit!

but i'm going to try refraining from blogging these bitching/whining sessions for a while and see where that gets me. It *is* the holiday season afterall right??

...maybe its PMS. yeah. that's probably it. I should just go into hiding for the next week or so.

we now return you to your regularly scheduled blogging.

currently digging the new G.O.D. 4th album, especially the third track, Dashi. I'm also digging the new album by Uhm Jung Hwa. Dunno why, but i've always liked the songs she comes out with.

now if only i could find a place to dl Lee Jung Hyun's 3rd album. I've been trying for forever! eesh.

[have i ever told you how i haven't bought any cds since i was last in korea in july of 1999? hehehe. i think i'm too cheap to buy them now lol]

dude!!!! i'm soooooo tired!!!! I was at work for 10.5 hours today just trying to catch up on stuff and figuring out why i was short $100+!!! argh. so tired. so tired. I've been up for 14 hours already and I still haven't started writing up my SPED assignment. /me is screwed. at least I still have tomorrow morning. And in 30 minutes alias starts. yay! at least there's a silver lining right?

...and harry potter was tight yo. especially liked the wizard's chess near the end. wasn't all that impressed by quiddich if only because it was basically how my mind imagined it. ^_______^ i love my imagination.

gosh. i think i would've preferred to just have my test in the early morning instead of this 2pm, waiting all day to take it, shtuff. it just prolongs the agony if you ask me. Not like i'm ready for it in the least. i took the practice test and pretty much bombed it. *sigh* hopefully i'll get lucky and i won't have to shell another hundred bucks out to retake it.

okay..i'm off to school! wish me luck...i'll need it.

thanks guys for putting up with me. i dunno. the last week seems to have been just stressful both in my personal life and in school. thankfully the personal stress has been resolved and the school stress should be a little less in like 5 hours when my test is over. my paper is also almost done and i'll only have a couple of other things to focus my attention on. i guess it helps when i focus and stop procrastinating. but yeah, thanks for putting up with my uhhh...weirdness? ;P

hey look. it's been a year since i've been here at bhurdie.blogspot.com. It's like the only stability I've had on the web for the past year since I decided to kick it from geocities to digirice and now to my own domain. these days i'm wondering why i'm still here but eh, why not? i just love taking up more useless webspace with my babbling...especially when i'm bored. gosh, i miss those days at work in SF when I was just so bored i blogged at least five times a day. hmm, kinda like today huh? ;P

I have this urge to go out to a *nice* restaurant all dressed up. I haven't had a chance to wear my strapy sandals in like a year!! That really is a shame. =( I want to wear my strappy sandals!! I want to wear them now!!! *tantrum*

this is obviously due to hw/test stress overload. just ignore me.

WAH!!! Min is scaring me!!! He says he thinks the girl who plays Hermione on HP is hot and that he'd b@ng her! WAH!!!! child pr0n!!!!! sick!!!! *running away crying*

it's so amazing how these months have flown by and Harry Potter is finally here! i'm so excited i can hardly contain myself! unfortunately for me, i'll have to wait until tomorrow evening...and all through my ucky test! just picture it..me trying to concentrate on case histories and knowing how to organize content knowledge for student learning but failing because i have harry potter on the brain. yeah, let's see if i can pass this one.

oh and isn't it nice trying to finally study for something [the day before!!] and falling asleep for 2 hours instead? yeah, i'd say i'm screwed too. ;P

so i lied and said i didn't feel very well just so i could skip out on the last period of the day. well, it was a half-truth. i honestly felt a little dizzy because i didn't have anything to snack on for lunch and plus my heart just doesn't want to be anywhere right now.

to me criticism hurts worse than any physical pain you could inflict. it tends to linger well after the initial blow. =/

Puffy eyes. How does one cover up puffy eyes in the morning?

so umm yeah...didn't get to study and i didn't get to read. got to cry for about an hour on the phone though.

now isn't that always fun?

I'm an idiot.

I started on a redesign. dammit. And yes, I still haven't finished my book yet. Only half way there.

Then I wanted to call Grant and it just ended in disaster. I basically ended the call being fed up and irritated at his behavior and we parted on not-so-sweet terms. I should've kept my mouth shut. Our call was almost over too!

At least we said the "i love you"s. *shrug*

I hate extended bouts of negativity sometimes. grrrr.

And yes, I am indeed an idiot. Glad we got that settled.

bored. bored. bored.

boingy. boingy. boingy.

Just spent the last hour procrastinating s'more. But I was having so much fun trying out Dreamweaver and selecting my cute little icons for my picture page. hehe. Have a looksee. The links don't work yet tho. Okay, back to the depressing book. I'm on the NYC chapter. Boo for so much sadness there today and lately.

<rant>
My sister is an idiot. Last night she lost her car keys at some club and early this morning I get woken up by my dad and sister yelling at each other because he needed her spare key to make copies but my sister didn't care and just wanted to sleep. What the fuck dude, I get yelled at by my parents not to wake her up when I just whisper and here they are fucking yelling at 6 AM!! I get no respect man. That's why I just say fuck it. The world doesn't revolve around my sister. It's her fault for having a job that makes her work late and its also her fault for staying out late and trying to sleep all day.

Then I find out from her site that she got pulled over a couple days ago when she was speeding and drunk and all she got was a warning. They should've suspended her license dammit!! She seriously needs to learn some responsibility. She doesn't even have a checking account to pay her own bills!!
</rant>

"..I only drive around the island when I'm depressed. Hmm, come to think of it, I haven't been depressed in a long time!"
"And that's a bad thing?"
"Oh no, just saying."

Too bad I only notice how long I've been content and happy when I'm slowly slipping back into the deep valley of sadness...

I am surrounded by negativity and I just can't escape the dark forces. I am drowning in it.

Hapa test. Can you tell who's hapa and who's not? Okay, so I only got a 66% but dammit! 12 out of 18 is pretty good I think! ...alright, its a damn shame. *hanging head*

link from hapachan's site

Chingoo ['friend'] was an interesting movie. I was a little disappointed in the fact that most of the movie was dark and it didn't really end on a happy note, but it was thought provoking nonetheless. Very graphic with violence and sex too. whew, I kinda felt like us Americans were somehow too conservative! haha or maybe not. However, I think I'm mostly disappointed because Grant didn't enjoy it as much as I wanted him to. Damn me for always hoping for too much in things I choose. Oh well, I'm glad I saw it. And I think they talked really funny. Anyone know if that's because of a southern dialect? i'm so unknowledgeable in these things.

yay! going to see chingoo tonight! even tho its raining and grant was really sick yesterday, but hey, we'll be indoors and he's a lot better today anyway. ^_~

but you gotta admit, he must really love me to go out when he's sick...and to go out to watch a korean film at that!

So here's what I don't get. Why do people still continue to use those stupid anonymizing programs to view my page? If they were gonna send me an evil email or evil gbook post maybe, but just to view it? It's not like I really care who visits my site. Sheesh. I mean, you really think you're that special for me to care? Not like I'd know anyway since all I really get is your isp and time zone. Dude, it could be anyone! Besides, even if I did know it was you, what could I do? Say, "oh look! so-and-so visited my page!" Yep, that's about it. wheee. So why care?

After that last post I ended up taking an hour nap. If Grant didn't call me up to tell me he was just gonna go home instead of staying at school and meeting me I probably would've slept right through my math class. whee.

And yay for my baby not going to camp anymore...but boo for it being because he's sick. =( Maybe now I can get him to go see Chingoo tomorrow at the film festival. [yay for subtitles!! but boo for not being able to see Gen Y Cops and other movies]

I'm so tired. I don't want to go to school now. I also need to clean my super messy room and put away day old washed laundry. bleh. My only thing to look forward to is seeing Grant. But dangit, I know he'll get out of class late again and then I'll have to go to class and I'll be irritated that I don't get the quality time with and I'll be even more pissed because it's the only time I get to see him and spend even a little time with him until friday afternoon. Damn his school camp.

See, I get irritated when I'm tired. Maybe I should jsut sleep and not go to class. ;P

wtf? alias isn't on. its that damned practice. boohar. =(

YAY! Alias is on tonight! I thankfully got to catch the rerun of the premire this past week thanks to ms. x...dear god where did she go? Does sd-6 have her? lol [yeah, i'm stupid like that] I'm all excited about seeing a new episode and getting on track with the rest of the world now. woohoo! maybe I should start working as a secret agent somewhere. Supposedly people with math degrees are intelligent enough right? Uhhh...right?

...not intelligent enough to stop procrastinating every weekend though.

yay for 3 emails in one day from people I don't normally get to hear from! I guess it really does help if I write them first huh. hahaha. hey, i'm trying. maybe you'll be next. muahahah

okay that was stupid. a sure sign that i need to sleep now so I can wake up in 6.25 hours. oh joy!

too bad so sad...;P

hmm...i think i say 'dammit' way too often. will have to try cutting back a little. we'll see how long this lasts. ;P

i'm getting sick. dammit!

*sigh* as always...thinking with my stomach...

Reading Min's blog made me miss the Cheesecake Factory. What I wouldn't give for some of their tiramisu cheesecake. =/

All I want to know is how much calories and fat boba has. Is that too much to ask?

First i see a rumor that 7 tapioca balls are 100 calories. Then I see another site saying their tropical fruit drinks are fat free. Can't someone just put the damn info somewhere?!

Organic Bubble Tea Popcorn? wtf?

These foods are just too weird!

Oh yeah..and Happy Halloweenie before it's too late! Hope you didn't eat too much candy!

I now have a craving for candy corn. dammit!

Today was a shitty traffic day. You'd swear everyone and their momma was on the road at the exact same time as me. And almost all of them don't know how to drive!! Freakin bastids kept me from getting to school on time! gah!!

On the way to G's house from school it took me practically 10 minutes to get from Kaiser Moanalua to the bottom of the hill by the Panasonic building, something that should normally only take a minute w/o traffic and up to 4-5 with normal traffic. At one point I think I was in one spot for at least a full minute before moving another 2 feet. And do you know why? Because stupid ass people who get into a 3 car fender-bender in the middle lane don't have the common sense to MOVE THEIR CARS TO THE FREAKING SIDE OF THE FREEWAY!!!!

Traffic is really bad for me though because after I finally get out of it, my natural instinct is to floor the gas and get as much speed out of my system as humanly possible, even if it means weaving through traffic. ugh.

I'm trying *really* hard not to snack as much as I'd like to. I always get the munchies and I have to do everything just to stop me from getting something from the kitchen. I think so far, one technique I'm mastering is going between the 2 fridges a couple times and each time holding the door open for a bit, staring inside and deciding that there is absolutely nothing worth eating right now. Of course I get irked inside but I just console myself that this is for the best.

You do know of course that there are bags of chips, bags of cookies, 2 pies, some pizza and tons of soda staring right back at me when I'm looking in. *sigh* I hate self-control.

Doesn't this look a bit disturbing to you? I mean, little kitties in buns?
from san-x

Gosh its weird. Now I actually have to think about the time difference. Its only 2 hours diff from cali right? and 5 from NY? I'm so glad I live in Hawaii. This daylight savings crap always gave me a headache. I still don't understand it fully.

good moooooooooooooorning!!!

ugh. i hate trying to wake myself up at 5 am

of to work now. byeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Woop. 3 hours and a couple extensions and cleaning products for my computer later, I'm finally done with the room. I'm all proud.

And UH won against Fresno State while on national television. Can't get any better than that eh?

I'm procrastinating again but not because I want to. I *have* to satiate this need to rearrange my room. *sigh* We'll see if I can finish in a couple hours. *crossing fingers*

Dude, In reference to that invoice I got from that doctor, I just noticed that he charged $240 total just for examining me for less than 2 minutes and for just chatting with me for about 5-7 minutes! Dang. I am definitely going into the wrong line of work.

Not only do i have the urge to rearrange my room, I'm now thinking about "the scary 'r' word" as luckykat put it. It always happens about ever six months or so. Redesign? Am I crazy? As if I didn't have enough crap to keep me constantly playing catchup in life. Oh well, just watch..it'll still happen sometime in the next month. I certainly am crazy yo! [i just had this urge to end a sentence with 'yo!' hahaha]

Hilarious flash page. I love Colin Powell.

I can't believe it. I just got an invoice from that specialist doctor I saw for that little accident I had back in FEBRUARY!!

Now, I can understand that I need to pay the balance of whatever the insurance company didn't cover, but isn't the invoice a little late? I mean really. Okay, so they sent it back in September and the mail forwarding service in Berkeley SUCKS ASS!!! But still. Seven months is a long time to wait until sending it out. What's funny though is that it says my total is only just 30 days old (probably more now). Damn slow ass processing if you ask me.

So what happens when this guy delivers babies? Do they send the bill after the kid's first birthday?

I have this huge urge to rearrange my room again. I hate when this feeling hits me because more often than not I always end up doing it. More wasting of my time. wheee

And yay for not going to OP today. I know, I'm bad. But I can just blame it on my mom. She's the one that had jury duty. Sucks to be her. heh

Uhh yeah. You could say it's been a bad day.

Shit. You'd swear she thought she was God's gift to motherhood or some fucking crazy shit like that. Claiming she sacrifices every damn thing that could possibly make her happy just for me. Then she asks why I don't just move out then. Well I would you fucking loon if you didn't suck all my money away from me!!!

Dammit, I'll just taking the fucking bus if you think I'm not grateful. ERRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!

YES!!
I just finished my paper for Ed Foundations. I think this is the least amount of time I've let come between my finishing time and the beginning of class. 1.5 hours. Not bad eh? hehe

Not my fault this time though. Work and the early wake up is starting to take its toll. Feeling constantly drained and sleep deprived can't be a good thing. *yawn.* Maybe I should be like my weak ass sister who stayed home from school to sleep just because she got home late from work. heh.

Nah, too tempting. I'd never get anything done!!

Oh joy. Time to get ready for class. Ugh. That. is. the. boringest. class. EVER.

Yes, I did end up going to Morning Glory today. Dammit. I didn't buy any Mashimaro stuff though. They only really had Mashimaro stationary pads but I had already picked out a Kogepan one. haha. Then I picked up some Tarepanda stationary, a Kogepan eraser, and a packet of tissue. I love their packet tissue. lol

Too bad the prices at MG are like double the price in Korea. It irks me to see the korean price so clearly listed. I'd much rather live in ignorance sometimes. haha.

Yes, I did buy a whole bunch of useless stuff, but oh well, I'm happy. =P

Mashimaro is so cute!! Not as cute as my tarepanda, of course, but cute none the less. Makes me wanna go to Morning Glory to see if they have anything with him even though I'm so anti morning glory these days. It's so played out!!! But what a cutie. I wonder if they'll have tarepanda stuff too. hmmm. [just what I need...more stuff to blow my money away on ;P]

Tuesdays suck. But Wednesdays suck even harder. Of all my work/school days, I think I like Mondays the best, even though I destest my classes then too.

ARGH!! I don't want it to be Wednesday tomorrow. I hate being in the high school all day! Today was sooo bad since no one wanted to listen, especially in Algebra. ugh. shoot me now.

I have this little problem. Don't laugh at me okay? But I have this problem where I sometimes have trouble knowing whether I match or not. haha Ever since I was in Elementary school I have always had to ask my mom or sis [dad wouldn't know if it slapped him in the face] if I matched. I also had to ask what would match with certain peices of clothing. It's just not innate in my psyche or something. But also sometimes I think I have to be reassured by someone else because I already know it does or doesn't match. But I just hate it when I'm so hoping it matches [even though I may know better] and then my mom says it doesn't match. Sometimes I'll even not listen to her just because I'm stubborn like than and then I'll end up being paranoid the entire day that I'm not matching. haha

So now I'm wearing this light greyish-blue skirt and white top and wanted to know what kind of shoes would match. Considering I only really have black, her answer didn't really make me happy but yet I don't know what else I can do. My other clothes are in the wash and if they're not done within the hour I'll have no choice but to wear this. aish. I'm such a babo.

Have been feenin for some alterna-rock lately. Maybe I've become too saturated with the hip hop and R&B. bleh. So I've been tuning more to 101.9 and 97.5. Sometimes I'll hit up 96.3 but only if I don't mind that easy listening/ballad shtuff. heh.

So recently [as in less than 24 hours ago] I discovered Linkin Park. Well, technically I had heard of them before but this was my first time hearing their sound and actually paying attention to their video ["In the End"]. My thoughts? It was hella tight yo. I think they even have an Asian guy [Min, does that interest you? haha]. Anyway, I really like the singer and emcee/vocalist duo in their set up. It sorta makes for some lame parts in a video when one guy is doing his thing and the other guy is just chillin in the back but its the sound that matters right?

And today I also heard some Bush after like 4 years. Gosh I miss hearing Jhoel raving about Gavin. hahaaha. So yes, much downloading tonight. In addition, got some Nickelback - How You Remind Me, and Timbaland and Magoo - One and All (???). Usher - U Got It Bad, Genuwine - Differences, and Busta Rhymes - Break Your Neck are cool too. Hey, I didn't say I STOPPED listening to hip hop and shit. hehe

I always wonder why I bother reading some journals even though I know the person or their writing irritates me to no end. It must be some kind of sick pleasure of mine.

And you know you're thinking the same thing of me and my journal huh. heh

It's quite funny. Ironic really. After being such a [almost diehard] fan of H.O.T. [think top boy band in Korea like 2 years ago; now defunct] for years and not really wanting to admit that Sechskies [rival boy band for a while] was cool too, I can honestly say that the latter is probably my favorite Kpop group of all time right now..and probably forever. I sing a bunch of their slower songs at noraebang and one of my most favorite songs of all kpop is Moomohan Sarang from their 3rd album. Hilarious I tell you.

[but I'm still a fan of WooHyuk dangit! and don't you forget it! lol]

Of course, you probably won't really understand if you've never been into kpop.

Yes, this is what I do on Sunday nights when I'm procrastinating yet again. Oh, and if you notice multiple visits to your own pages, sorry, I'm trying to find things to distract myself. Kinda frustrating when people don't update around my schedule. hahaha jk. [i need coffee...or maybe a slurpee. mmmmm]

Here's my theory. People either love or hate signing guestbooks. Or maybe it's just me. I think I fall into the latter category and yet I still do at times and I even have one of my freakin own. I can't explain it. All I can say is that if I'm really bored or if I'm feeling extremely productive and in want of sharing my babble with others, then yes, I'll oblige. Or if they ask nicely. ["please won't you humor me?"] =) But really, I just find it funny for some strange reason. I just can't bring myself to do it even when I know I probably should. Same goes for email...

Okay, so maybe it's just my insanity. Nevermind.

Work drives me a little loony sometimes. I can say this and it's only my 3rd day of actually working. Great isn't it?

So I have to balance all this money and every single time so far I've managed to balance perfectly. Only thing is that before this wonderful feat happens I always manage to have some kind of screw up or another. Today, when my boss/trainer had to leave for like 2 hours to work at another store I managed to totally screw up my counts in my petty cash and my drawer. Never leave me alone again!! At least not in the next 2 weeks anyway. After trying to balance the petty cash like 5 different times I finally managed to get it to the total I was supposed to have. It's really quite amazing how I managed to count almost the exact same money and came out with 5 entirely different amounts! I started to think that the money would disappear if I put it into the safe! How utterly ridiculous. But hey, that's whay 'loony' means right? haha.

I'm a loon. Blame it on the 5 am wake up.

try bloggerbot its so cool! Blog thru IM!

Before I go to sleep...and it's not even 10 yet!!...things I've learned in the last 2 days:

- Love is a wonderful thing.

- Never just eat a pancake and grapes and expect that to hold you over for the entire day.

- Never get mad at your SO just because you think he/she stood you up and you've been waiting for their call for the last 3 hours. Maybe you forgot that he/she had to tutor. [oops]

- Staying in most of the afternoon reading magazines and watching tv will most likely give you a headache.

- My driving has become uber shitty [ie, heavy on the accelerator and not turning smoothly] so I'm being reformed into driving much less "recklessly"

- Sketcher's dressier shoes have rubber soles, but that rubber isn't really the kind that will prevent you from slipping on a wet/oily floor.

- Business at Waikele must suck now without much tourists. It sure was dead on a Thursday night.

- Red Lobster is good up until the salad and the appetiser. When you get your shrimp or crab, then it just becomes down right shitty.

- I feel naked without my watch.

- The people at the dry cleaning place next to Circuit City seemed just a tad bit rude.

- Although Gap had some great sale items, all I found were bottoms and despite my want, my need lies with tops. *sigh*

- I don't like the Forever 21 clothes as much these days. Pity.

- Poor Grant's bro got his wisdom teeth pulled and now can't eat very solid foods.

- The theaters at Pearl Highlands suck now. The theaters are too small, the seats are also too squishy, and they don't have the movable hand rests! This is what happens when you're spoiled and go to the Dole ones all the time.

- Serendipity is a great, entertaining, light hearted romantic movie.

- Right now I love Grant so much more than I did 5 minutes ago. More than 1 hour ago. And more than 1 day ago. It just keeps on growing.

YAY! I'm practically done with the paper and its almost time to go! Does this mean that is a good paper? Of course not. I've never been a good writer. Why should a cram fest be any different. hehehe.

Oh, and I'm very proud to say that on my second day of work I managed to balance everything perfectly for the second day in a row. Of course, there were a few problems before balancing, but that's not the point. Yes, I'm very proud. *beam* haha so cheezy.

Going to dinner at G's gram's and gramp's house for dinner. [YAY! I love them! They're so cute!]

So that leaves me with 1.5 hours to bs my way through this paper. #$@%! It never takes me less than at 2 hours to write something at least 2 pages long and full of meaningful, coherent content. Yeah, procrastination is my WORST habit.

Ok...philling is putting up a stink cuz I'm misrepresenting his opinions so here's his exact words:

Philling: hey man. i don't like iron monkey better just for the fighting
me: haha sure
me: you said it~
Philling: well that's not the main reason. i like the fighting better than the fighting in cthd
me: hahahah
me: so does this mean i have to rewrite what i said?
Philling: nah
Philling: you can just add somethign in your next entry
Philling: hehehe
me: lol
Philling: i can go over specifically what i didn't like in cthd ;P
me: ok. list it and i'll post it up
Philling: 1) dialogue in cthd seems... pretty strange (almost bad). this is probably a translation problem because the screen play was first written in english then translated to chinese
me: is that it?
Philling: 2) the story line also seemed ... how to put it mildly.. white-washed chinese storyline... kind of like what a non-chinese person thinks of chinese culture
Philling: specifically was the theme of undying honour and restricted love between chow yun fat and michelle yeoh
Philling: 3) the spoken mandarin was pretty bad... for once i woudl have prefered the actors to speak in their original dialect (meaning chow yun fat and michelle yeah) or actually have dubbers for them
Philling: 4) acting wise chow yun fat did ok.. but i thought this was one of michelle yeoh's lesser performances... i've never seen her so stoic and monotone (perhaps it's the mandarin)
Philling: notice how i didn't mention even the action yet ;P
me: hey phil...you think you could hurry up a little? i'm need to sleep real soon. [wake up in 6 hours]
Philling: i'll give you the rest later heheh
Philling: you can say... it's a continuing list
me: haha okay.
Philling: ok last part for today
Philling: 5) CTHD seems to struggle between two genres: action and drama. as an action film it suffers when you acknowledge what has been done before it and in other films... as a drama, it seems ok but still doesn't tally up much memorable scenes in my mind...

Dude, talk about overkill. And it's not even done yet. Dork huh. haha. Hi Phil!! lol

I'm wondering if Iron Monkey will be do well when it comes out here in the US. Philling bhurd sent me a bootleg copy [thanks phil!] and at first I thought it sucked. But that was only because the fricken subtitles went way too fast to enjoy it. When I finally got around to watching it [during an intese session of procrastination] I thought it was pretty enjoyable. It's mostly fighting and the story is kinda lame but it was still entertaining. Quite different from Crouching Tiger. No, I'm not saying CTHD was not enjoyable [i think only phil thought so] but this had way more fighting. Hence, phil loves this more than CTHD. Therefore causing me to wonder if American audiences will feel the same way.

And I wonder if they'll slow down the damn subtitles. aish.

...dude! This movie was made in 1993! and the little boy is actually a girl! I didn't know! hahaha

Going to your first day of work on only four hours of sleep is never a good thing. But hey, at least I balanced everything on my first day. woohoo.

Okay. Paper time. bleh.

Dangit. Did something stupid even though it seemed so right at the time. So tomorrow I'm gonna have to fix it after I have my orientation. Wheeee. This is *so* not gonna be fun.

On IM tonight, playfully arguing about money and stuff:

...
G: still comes out the same in the end
me: i guess
G: that's right
G: i know
me: yeah whatever. you THINK you know
G: no, i KNOW i know
G: haha
me: i KNOW you THINK you know but you really DON"T know
me: =P
me: hahah
G: okay, so i don't know sometimes,but I do KNOW i love you
G: haha
G: take that
me: aww. i LOVE you too
G: ha, see i know what i'm talking about

He's such a dork, but gosh he's so cute when he is!
cheezy!
^____^

Happy Chusok!
[dunno what they say in korean. hehe]
Yeah, I know I'm just a tad late.

Now I have this craving for yakgwa and songpyun. argh!

Wish I was from a "Korean" Korean family. Oh the torture of being 4th generation and so far removed from all those festive holidays! ;P

the journal is back!
whee!
oh boy! oh boy!

Don't get *too* excited now.
hehe

YAY!!!!

I FINALLY GOT A JOB!!!

WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH! Dis paper stay killin me la dat. I like give up da kine already.

"Da kine = whateva you like say La dat = like that"

As if life couldn't get any more complex and packed full of trials, we now have a flea infestation in our house. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok..back to the hiatus. heh

Yes, the tragedy of the towers and the pentagon hurts.

What is hurting me more now is the way so many ignorant people just want to "get rid of them all." "Them" supposedly means those violent fanatics but the implied feeling is just to kill all Arabs. That in itself hurts and angers me. How can our country be full of such ignorant, racist people? Yesterday a man called the radio station calling for all of "them" to be shipped out of the US. After the Japanese internment 60 years ago you would think we would've learned.

With these things occurring, I'm starting to see the dark side of America and am wishing just a bit that I just lived somewhere else.
It's definitely a sad time.

I feel more American and more love for my country than I have ever in my life time.

It is a time for mourning, and it is disheartening that someone would try so very hard to tear apart the foundation and freedom of our country.

My prayers are with our country and all its citizens.

These are the only feelings I can express in words...

Met my mentor teacher today. It was okay but I just need to exude a little more confidence and uhh...personality i guess.

That and I need to make myself look at least 5 years older. She said "You look like a student." Ack!

Start the observing Wednesday. I'll be taking roll. Next week she mentioned something about me going over homework. Pray for me.

hehe

Did you know...

[regarding cats]

Tortoise-shell males are rare ones. This is due to the fact that the genes controlling the particular colour-form are carried on the X chromosomes, the red gene on one and the non-red gene on the other. The catch is that only females have two X chromosomes, so only females can display the red plus non-red tortoise-shell combination. Males have instead one X chromosome and one small Y chromosome, which means that on their single X they carry either the red OR the non-red gene, but cannot have both. Therefore they are either all over red tabby or all over black.

Tortoise-shell males are occasionally born, but are always born sterile. (They develop with the combination XXY.)

and did you know...

[re cats again]

97% of orange tabbies are in fact male. Usually the females are calicos. For a female to be orange, dad has to be orange, and mom has to be orange (100% chance of passing the O gene) or tortoise shell (she then has a 50/50 chance of passing on the O gene.)

My parents are back from a 3 day hiatus. dammit.

I have way unfinished homework that is due in 2 days. shit.

I haven't felt in the mood to share much recently. sorry.

till next time i guess...

I'm caught in the middle of an embittered battle between my mom and my aunt now. Why my mom has to pick fights with people in our family I'll never know, but why the hell do I always have to get dragged into it? shit.

Grant is my guardian angel. All he wants to do is take me away from all of this and make me happy. That was definitely the one thing I needed to hear tonight.

I'm alive and trying to do homework. bah. I think I'm still in vacation mode. Not a good thing.

Okay..back to toiling away. laters...

Dammit. I hate feeling bitter and irratated and all this negative shit.

Tonight my mom decided to give away all her jewlery. First it was going to my aunt. Then I protested and so I was to take what I wanted. But being the goddamn fair person I am, I opted to wait for my sister and then we'd split it. Well, even though I got the nicest one of it all, I'm still super bitter because I wasn't aggressive enough and my sister ended up with all the nice shit. She has a majority of it all and now I'm so very bitter at it all.

I'm so bitter and mad at myself not only because I feel cheated and jipped but also because I know I shouldn't be this materialistic over such stupid things.

ARGH!!!

Besides the lingering Starbucks craving, I also have this great need to go travelling again. Not just travelling though, I reeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaally want to travel on a plane with someone I know, preferrably Grant. There's nothing like killing those 5+ hours with someone else. It sure as hell beats flying solo. That's the worst. So my sole reason for wanting to travel is because of the company. Go figure.

damn. it's pretty dang scary when you find a blog that belongs to your high school friend's younger sister. it's especially scary when you only remember that girl as a young, small, kinda chubby [but still cute!] kid and now you see her as this pretty high schooller that acts just like how you'd expect a high schooller to.

I feel old now. >O.o<

I suddenly have this huge craving for some starbucks. Say some white mocha? I'd even be happy with some steamed milk with a shot of vanilla. ooh. Or maybe a caramel frappuccino.

Dammit! I need to get out!!!

I'm going through a royal fix right now. It must be because of Princess Diana's death anniversary...

Did you know that Schlesweig-Holstein-Sonderburg-Glucksburg-Saxe-Coburg-Gotha is genealogically the royal family's last name but the Queen gave a decree some years ago saying that it would be Windsor for royals with title from then on. Those without title would take on the name Mountbatten-Windsor.

That's so cool.

Oh! And I think that Prince William is like the ONLY white guy I find extremely attractive. He's a cutie. ^_^

...damn. I just found out that the princes can't marry anyone who's Roman Catholic but protestant, non-divorced Americans are technically okay. Maybe I should consider converting. hahaha