...and then when i finally get their attention I act like a bitch and push them away.

boy am i smart or what?

I hate it when the people i need most aren't there when i need them.
Then again, i never let them know that i need them so i guess that's what my problem is.

People need to learn how to read my mind.

sucks sucks sucks sucks this week really SUCKS!

Dang. Good thing I kept that stupid telemarketer in the back of my mind. I was supposed to get shit from them 7-10 days after but I got nothing and I just wanted to get it to cancel anyway. So I finally call today and they had my phone number wrong, those bastids. I was signed up but the authorization wasn't right so that's why I didn't get anything. Grrr. I hate when shit like that happens to me.

Moral of the story: Don't give in to telemarketers just to shut them up because you may forget to cancel later.
Dangit.

My parents' present for my bday: A $50 discount on my rent.

whee. Shows the how much sentiment the put into it, no?
Not that I'm complaining about $50 of course.

dang...i'm rereading my blog from this year so far and i had forgotten how much i used to write here when i was in cali. All because of the boredom at work. haha. i don't have much to rant about these days so i guess that's a good thing right? but its so funny to remember all the things i despised so much.

Oh yeah, anyone have any ideas for what to get Grant on our anniv? I'm stressin here, and he keeps laughing at my attempts to "casually" ask questions. grrr. ;P

I DON'T WANT TO DO MY HOMEWORK GOSH DANGIT!!!!

frustration at its worst. bleh

This is just wrong.

To put a child through a torturous thing like name riddicule on purpose is just cruel and unusual. Its hard enough to get by with regular names!

Tonight is a night for mild celebration.

The prof cut our journal assignment in HALF and made other assignments extra credit. She also cut our class time down by one day. Yay for Ed Psych and creating "inviting" environments. ;P

I now have a teeny bit more time to study math! [woopie]

Now I'm off to eat sushi in celebration. YUMMY!!!

I don't like Kim Hyun Jung's new album.

I don't "get" Cleo's new video.

and

I think Hong Kyung Min is a cutie.

Gosh I miss kpop in Korea.

Kpop Pride!
hahaha

i give up already.

i'm going to shut up until i feel i can safely say something without that nagging feeling.

even my aim chats aren't feeling right anymore.
i think its time to sleep.
nite

On a related note...

i am probably very guilty of spending way too much time on certain sites. i'll check at different times of the day for an update just because i have no life and i honestly have nothing else better to do but point and click. pretty sad huh? I probably should be studying instead, but do you really think that'll happen? So let me lead my sorry existence for the next few weeks at least, please? I am forseeing employment in the next month. there goes my boring vacation. =/

oh yes, my point? sorry for racking up hits and inflating those site stats. heehee. *innocent look*

update: i am in no way implying that others who rack up stats have no life. i am just speaking for ME. that is what this journal is supposed to be right? I think i'm going to have to stop talking soon. since when did i have to start worrying about what people think? man i'm weak.

I swear I'm making an ass out of myself almost everyday now.

First Joe, and now Grace. Let's see..."Not everyone who uses anonymizer peruses my site from hawaii is evil..." wait, no, can't use that line again. Its not that i have anything against you or anyone else from hawaii, i'm flattered actually, but i just wanted to say that sometimes the stats makes me wonder [i wish i had name tags for IPs ;P] because hawaii is literally this small. But it shouldn't matter, right? Because I don't have any more enemies that actually live here, right? [As far as i know anyway.] And I apologize for yet again letting my mouth make me seem like such an idiot. You'd think I'd have learned to stick my foot in my mouth at the right times by now.

*kicking own ass*

You know, its more that a little disconcerting when i see someone from hawaii perusing my site for a lengthy period of time. This island is so small, who knows who it might be!

And yes, i check my stats if only because i'm bored out of my mind [ie, i don't want to do my freakin homework, okay?] and i have nothing else better to do.

Downloaded the new Nsync album yesterday. I'm not liking it as much as the other ones [yet] but I'm digging a few songs like track 5 "The Two of Us" and track 13 "That Girl (Will Never be Mine)".

Yes, I'm an boyband lover. So shoot me. It's not like I'm in love with Justin Timberlake. sheesh. Its all about JC anyway. ;P

Oops...my bad. Not everyone who uses anonymizer is evil. Its just that I got some really mean and evil emails last year from someone using the service so I'm sort of biased against it. I didn't intend to insult any innocent parties. So sorry. You can bash me now Joe...thanks for siging the gbook though. =)

Boy do I feel like the babo now.O.o

Okay, I don't get why someone would want to view my site through anonymizer.com but if that's you, you're just dumb. DUMB..you know...BAKA?

heh. Its just stupid.
Plus I have this thing against that service. Its pure evil.

Windtalkers, the John Woo WWII film due out in Nov, looks pretty interesting.

And it was filmed partly in Hawaii to boot. =P

Personality Disorder Test

I scored a VERY HIGH for Avoidant personality disorder, and a HIGH for dependent personality disorder. ACK!

Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Moderate
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate