Sunday, December 30, 2001

<rambling about kpop shtuff>
Ever since HOT broke up *sniff* I had been anticipating what their separate projects would sound like and if I would like them. Well, Kangta came out first, and him being the lead singer of the now defunct group, he definitely had the best chances of succeeding. Plus I think he had the most fans, although personally I think he looks kind of gay. His album turned out to be more jazzy but it was impressive nonetheless. Moon HeeJun, the only other member besides Kangta to remain with SM Entertainment, came out with his solo album next. He was like the second lead singer in HOT and was known for some of his dancing. I figured his album would probably be more metal-rock-ish since that's the kind of genre he produced when HOT wrote songs on their other albums. I was right. His album isn't that great, but it's not completely bad.

Lee JaeWon, Tony An, and Jang WooHyuk (my personal favorite) were left out in the cold by SM and signed with Yegam instead, thus sealing the end of HOT's fate. I was mostly anticipating this album, not only because of my....devotion?...uhhh maybe not that much...LIKE of these members (ok, not really JaeWon) and my curiousity at what kind of sounds this trio could come up with. I mean, Tony was more like third string singer/rapper in HOT, WooHyuk was known more for his screaming/rapping/deep talking and dancing [better than HeeJun!], and JaeWon....uhhh, I never really noticed him much...I don't think anyone really did. Well, their album has finally been released under the group name JTL (JangTonyLee) and I really like their sound the best out of them all. Why? I'm not quite sure, but their songs are just a bit catchier and beebopish. More boybandish? just a tad. And Tony's singing isn't really THAT bad. And I'm not biased just because I liked Woohyuk the best. It's just too bad they all had to split up....but it's not like HOT's sounds were getting any better anyway. I like this JTL =)
</rambling about kpop shtuff>

Like you guys really care right? lol

Thursday, December 27, 2001

Grant is painting my toenails right as i type this. It's his first time. haha. Pictures will be forthcoming since yay! I gave him a card reader for xmas so now he is using his digicam....or at least i am. hehehe.

update: he says, and i quote "little toes are easy." hahahha. he's redoing the big toes for the THIRD time!!

one foot down starting on the other foot

inspecting his work..he thinks this is like art grant messed up. hehe

the finished product!
finally! i've been up for an hour searching for a stupid patch for my dreamweaver. yay! i finally found it. hehehe

Tuesday, December 25, 2001


Merry Christmas!!

Sunday, December 23, 2001

I am sooooo tired. I finished baking cookies for people finally last night and gave the last of it to my coworkers. Yet for some extremely retarded reason I felt compelled to make just one more batch of cookie dough so I could make for my family. Why? I don't know. They don't deserve it, well, at least my mom doesn't. She kept guilt tripping me the last week saying i care more about friends than family just because I wouldn't give her a damn cookie every time I pulled new ones from the oven. Like the fact that these were gifts while her own gift was under the tree meant nothing to her. shit. I even gave her some since I had extra and I still get no respect.

Wait..this wasn't supposed to be another rant about my mom. That normally goes into my journal. haha I really hate how my regular journal has turned into more of a dumping ground of negativity while this blog serves as my everyday stuffs now. hmm...

anyway, I'm just really tired. I've been working a lot and getting last minute things done. Macy's has really good sales! People were going buckwild on the photo frames/boxes/etc the other day. 50% off already marked down stuffs. Gosh I knew there was a reason I loved that store so much. haha And then now that it's vacation I'm trying to work a little extra so I get to work again tomorrow and friday. oh woopie. I even have to wake up earlier since it's a different store and it's farther. wooo. I just have to keep repeating to myself that "it's for the money." ;P

Oh, and thanks to those who wrote me about that last post. It's nice to know there are people out there who care enough to kick me in the ass to get me back on track. =)

Friday, December 21, 2001

Just got back from a great Christmas party at Grant's house. It was for his school classmates with their secret santa and everything. It was a lot of fun and I got to talk to a lot of people, but still, negative things always have to happen at some point right? Well, basically it was this one girl who i'm usually really cool with and on great terms with, but because i took her clothes pin [it was this game where you're not supposed to say a certain word ("yeah") or else people can take away your pins] early in the game she basically shit listed me and talked smack all night. Yeah I played along but to do it for the whole night was just a bit excessive. Let's not get into the drama with the prize drawings. Funny how I didn't get home till now though, 1:30 am!!

Now I have this uneasy feeling for some reason. Seeing grant together with one of his classmates made me wonder...why is he with me? We don't match...they match. It's such a silly thing to think about but for some reason it just struck me today. Its not like I've never seen her before. *sigh* I have too many insecurities and i just have to stop this nonsense. =/

Wednesday, December 19, 2001

oh yeah...YAY for being done with my semester!! =)
Had pretty good stone pot bi bim bap tonight from Sorabol because MC made me crave it. dangit! But anyway, grant didn't seem to care for it much and add to that the fact that I order with my eyes and not my stomach so I ordered an extra side dish of what i thought was the raw fish dish I wanted to try but turned out to be some skate dish instead. Either way it was way too spicy and overpriced and I didn't enjoy it in the least. I am beating myself up about as we speak. ugh. I hate when that happens. And I hate when I choose a place and the food and grant's not impressed. *sigh* That's like my goal now.

And did you know [of course you don't cuz i haven't told you yet duh] that i had to return my "perfect" gift that i got for Grant's mom because his dad got her the EXACT SAME salad spinner today and just gave it to her, no wrapping no nothing. Grant meant to tell his dad yesterday after he heard him talking about getting one but grant didn't and so today it was already too late. I even got that gift last month - a whole month before Christmas! gah! Yes, I'm pretty pissed about this but it's not like I can do anything about it now. Grant didn't do what he was supposed to do and now i'm suffering. Do you know how much i wanted to get that PERFECT gift? I feel like I have to redeem myself or something just because I'm not Mormon. geez. So now I have to use my $50 macy's gc so i can afford to get another gift that costs three times as much as the original perfect gift. boohar.

i think i'll be mad at grant, at least for the next few hours. hmph
yay! it's almost payday! well, that's like one of the only things I have to look forward to this week.

at least my final is almost here. [and i'm happy about this?] almost done. yay!
I want this camera.

It's like that one thing you know you'll probably never get because well, you can't, yet you want it so badly anyway.

okay, i really have to get back to studying now. bleh
Congrats to Paul, and Becky of course, on their new son! yay! He's so cute! [the baby...but Paul could be too. hehe]

here's a question: Has anyone ever seen a baby that WASN'T cute? I think i've seen one, but anyone else out there?

Tuesday, December 18, 2001

Yay! gg posted a soap pic. Here are mine: one with a whale, and one with a turtle.

It's been a while since grant and i made these, but i never took pictures of them. and now that i look at them again, the color kind of bled so I better use these or something. Who knew making soap could be so fun right? ;P

Monday, December 17, 2001

have you ever had doubts but then tried to convince yourself that you're probably imagining things and thinking of only the bad things when the good things probably outweight the bad? And then you think...maybe you're just convincing yourself because you don't want to be wrong and have all your efforts and sacrifices be for nothing?

That's what i'm wondering about right now. I don't like it.
Cute kissy asian flash thing (its in korean but you'll still get it ;P). dunno what else to call it. haha

thanks for the link philling!
my room is a complete disaster area right now. I don't think it has ever been this bad. EVER! I really need to clean up, especially since I finally just finished my SPED assignments. yay! Only one final on Wednesday to go! WOOHOO!

*sigh* my poor room.
ACK! A friend of mine is getting married in June! ACK!^2 Is this the beginning of the period in my life where everyone one of my friends gets married, leaving me alone in the dust of non-married life? uhh..maybe not. Especially when you consider the fact that my best friend got married....4 years ago. DAMN! Married for four years already and look at me. Oh well, I'm still young right? [and just watch me keep saying that for the next 10 years. lol] I'm so happy for all my soon-to-be married and married friends. YAY!

Sunday, December 16, 2001

dammit. to sum up..if i can remember it all...

been gone a few days. stressed, tired, working, baking, sleeping.
finished xmas cards, packed a gift to the mainland (yeah, just a tad late), went to the post office whee! then went searching for cookie cutters. dammit

made doughs friday and baked russian tea cookies while watching jurassic park III again. Found that the smell of molassas, and hence the entire raw gingerbread cookie dough, made me nauseous, so I definitely won't be making that again. Besides, the gingerbread cut outs were a pain in the ass and made me spend hours making a huge batch. I didn't know it would be so damn big! Next time [wait, what next time?] i'll reduce the recipe.

must decorate gingerbread men, finish assignments, watch Alias [YAY!] and catch up on sleep. Speaking of which...I must go now.

Oh wait...my main point...I guess I'm mistaken when it comes to mixers with paddle attachments. i must be so deprived because it seems like many people have them. *sniff* I'm all underprivileged. haha. Jealous is more like it.
argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dammitalltohell. I just lost my freaking post!!!!!!!!

Thursday, December 13, 2001

The canadian boy is gone and now life is back to normal unfortunately. Mom is being super bitch so I'm running away tonight. No cookie baking for me. I'm very very sad. The cookies were to be the highlight of my week. T_T
so i'm finally done [for this week at least] and now I'm looking up cookie recipes. I'm going to bake tons tonight! yay! Anyway, I look at marthastewart.com [only because i had it linked from a while back for some reason] and I look at their gingerbread recipe and in the directions it says, "In an electric mixer fitted with the paddle attachment, cream butter and sugar until fluffy." Okay...is it just me or who the f**k has an electric mixer with a paddle attachment?! I swear, MS mainly caters to the upper class..i mean, who really has time to do any of the shtuff she comes up with? ugh. Better keep looking. heh.